You shouldn't compare yourself to others - they are more screwed up than you think.
December 27, 2007
Taare Zaneen Per & Jab V Met
Another movie i liked was Jab V Met....cute is what i wud like to say...it was a light movie and u will feel like watching it again....i loved all the songs and play it every morning..
December 26, 2007
Mind Over Matter
I came back and started reading it..the more i read and the more impatient i was. I wanted to confirm it with something from my records. I opened my diary which i keep writing once in a while, and read a post called "Void".
To my disbelief, i had mentioned the similar thing 2.5 years back..i had written many posts and i didnot remember their contents..but this one had a different content and i always felt that this post was much ahead of its time...
Anyways, it was gud to see somebody actually wrote on it and also gave suggestions...
The Void Within: appeared on Sunday, 23rd December 2007 under Mind Over Matter Section.
December 04, 2007
My Best Friends Wedding...
She was one person who always stood besides, knew all my little secrets, scolded me for stupid flings i had...loved me like her own sister and remained in touch by every means. She always complaint that i never called her back...i never really cared to see if she existed...and whatever efforts were made to save this relationship was by her only...and to be honest she was right...i was so casual....i always took her for granted..but i remember whenever we met after gaps...we never felt that we were away. We caught upon each others lives so fast that every thing looked normal everytime.
I never considered her to be a friend...she is more than a friend...she holds a special place in my heart..now for even getting a glimpse of her i will have to ask her new relations....i m going to miss her visits and night stays at my place :(
November 27, 2007
Dilema
When i went to office two of the gift items were given back out of which one had its wrapper missing. other two were missing. i esclated to the highest level by writing a strong mail. Recieved a call from the senior manager of admin saying if i m dead sure about this theft then ppl can be fired for the same. he also added that we have this concern person with us for last 7 yrs.
Now i wasnt sure what to tell him. its not that i lost those gifts...but i do not want to take someones job. how wud he feed his famly? Should i bother? mistake is a mistake. He wud not have clean the drawer himself but then he was a supervisor. whom should i hold responsible?
I m in this dilema since evening...tomorrow morning i have to take a call...god knows what i will b doing tom!
November 10, 2007
Nourish The Hungry: UN
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October 20, 2007
Trip to Paonta Sahib & Renuka Lake
Me, niks and mohit decided to go to Paonta Sahib. Its a famous gurudwara on the bank of Yamuna in Himachal. We started at 3.00 am in the morning and took the chandigarh highway which is also called as GT Karnal Road. Reached there at 9.00 am. Did darshan and then decided to sit at the bank of Yamuna to enjoy. We entered into the water and felt like bathing in it. Me and niks sat in it for hrs together. Poor mohit sat in a corner near our Handbags.
About Paonta Sahib:
Surrounded by a sal forest and on the banks of river Yamuna, the historic town of Paonta Sahib (350m) was founded by a tenth sikh guru, Guru Gobind Singh. When only 16 years old, the Guru left Anandpur Sahib and on the invitation of Raja Maidini Prakash of Sirmour, lived at this beautiful spot for over four years. The historic gurudwara commemorates his stay and interestingly the water of the Yamuna fall silent below this- which happened at the Guru's behest. The old 'Paonta' means 'Space for a foothold'.
From there we started for Renuka lake which is 40 kms. Never ask the route to just one person. Please ensure that you cross check with couple of people before starting in any direction. The biggest mistake what we did was asked a person to guide and he appeared sensible so we believed him. He told that there are two routes and the second one is less in distance. We chose the second route and had a real nightmare. 3-4 kms were gud and then there was no road...it was all broken or under construction or whatever you can define it as. It was no doubt breath taking beautiful sight but only if your head is turned to left or right and not straight!!! pity mohit for driving there.
Funny Incident: While struggling to find the right route, we stopped in between to take guidance from people on "how to reach Renuka Lake". We had asked not less then 20 people. After last 15 kms there were no milestones and some of them were misleading. So we saw an old lady crossing the road. We stopped the car and i lowered the window and asked her "Where is Renuka?" She stared and asked "Why"? I thought she could not understand my question so repeated and she looked at me suspiciouly and said "I am Renuka...tell me". I was blank for a minute...was it a kind of PJ! I was brought back from my thoughts when she repeated her answer...she gave looks as if we were there to abduct her...i was numb...for a minute i actually believed that there was no lake and somebody had played a bad joke. Mohit drove the car before i could reply back to the old lady....niks and mohit burst into laughter on my state...their laughter brought me back to sense.
Somehow we managed to reach Renuka Lake. We took 4 hrs to reach..
About Renuka Lake:
Legend has it that when the evil Sahasarjuna killed the sage Jamadagini and tried to abduct his wife Renuka. She flung herself into the water. The gods restored her to life and this lake is regarded to be her embodiment. There is a row of temples along its banks, and a track encircles the water. Boats are available on hire next to the hotel. This placid stretch of water is fed by underground springs and the surrounding hills are padded by lush forests that support a large variety of plant and animal life.
Btw if you plan to visit Renukaji, please take some food for 1 foot long fishes of the pond. Also, Say my hi to Renuka Aunty.
Overall, i would say the trip was wonderful. We came back the very same day. Dehradun was closeby but we dropped the idea of visiting it.
October 19, 2007
Mixed Emotions...
Its been one and half year with my org and i have experienced all sort of things. Anyways new and big challenges for me...2 months time to prove....lets see how things are after 2 months.
I am back and in full form to blog again. Work had absorbed me so badly that i could not even think of my lunches for 2-3 months. I am thankful to my 2 friends, niks and mohit who actually ensured my evening coffee all these months and which was a reason as how i survived.
Experiencing another set of mixed emotions, of being a married spinster!
June 07, 2007
The Committed "Me"
I am officially engaged and now getting married on 27th June 2007.
I am glad that i found him...
March 05, 2007
Sweet Tooth
After meal or in between any gaps i feel like eating something oily/fried..like packet of lays, potato chips, finger chips or anything that is dipped in oil and taken out. I have never heard of "Oil Tooth"..is there one?
March 01, 2007
Before...After
1st march 2006:
I found everything new. It was hard to remember faces. I had to fill so many forms and finally a seat was allocated to me with a system to work on. I kept my volume low and was little shy and hesitant. Just had an hope that dream will surely become my love one day.
1st march 2007:
I have joined another dept and most of my colleagues are known. I am aware of who's who of the organisation. My seat was already allocated. Was little skeptical about the new boss but after meeting him my doubts were gone. He is little short tempered but at the same time is aware of the fact. My role was clearly communicated to me and so was their expectations. Performace in last dept played an important role in bringing me here and second thing which weighted more was my politeness and right attitude.
I missed my department and my boss today. I missed my friends. Most of them have put down their papers and will be gone in few days time. I will miss the quality time spent with them and will cherish these memories forever.
Only thing which went wrong in this whole transition was my conversation with my last boss. I have always respected him and will continue that but somehow i selected wrong words and lost my temper when people tried being diplomatic with me. The worst was when i told them that if u cant meet my expectation then u will have me for next 2-3 months and my dissatisfaction will force me to quit. Quite a blunder. But i apologised later. Trying to cool it down and now telling them that "i dont intend to leave. Forget it, i was quite hyper."
Lesson learnt: Think twice before speaking.
February 17, 2007
Something Fishy...
Mom’s feedback: “It was little too spicy”
My Excuse: She eats bland food.
My feedback: preparation was nice but gravy was thick...I shld have add little more water. It was right to eat with chapattis but not right combination gravy wise for rice.
Next weekend I will try a new recipe. Thanks to internet for having all the recipes online ;) That was all about "fishy" :D
Tomorrow, I m going to attend another wedding. I haven’t packed my bag yet because I was busy watching movie on Set Pix. I have become fan of this channel. It is playing awesome movies. I glue myself to idiot box at sharp 10 p.m these days. Latest catch were
1. Resident Evil
2. Girl Interrupted
Liked both the movies. Tomorrow at 10 am its gng to play another movie called “Rudy”. I want 2 watch but not sure if time will permit and if I would be able to get up by that time. :P
February 16, 2007
Ahista Ahista
The film really lives up to its name. It's very slow and moves at one pace throughout. It's a love story but not a typical boy meets girl sort. In a way it's an everyday story.
Ankush's (Abhay Deol) job is to help the people who are getting married in court. He acts as a witness. Here he meets Megha Joshi (Soha Ali Khan). She is waiting for her boyfriend, Dheeraj (Shayan Munshi). Both have eloped from Nainital and are scheduled to meet in Delhi where they plan to have a court marriage. She waits for him the whole day but he doesn't turn up. She is in tears and asks Ankush for help as she is penniless. Ankush, being the good hearted soul helps her and later even borrows money from a friend to get her a job. Ankush starts working in a bank and is making progress in life. Ankush fells for her & She too falls in love with him (or kind of love), both agree for the marriage. She has gotten over her ex-love, Dheeraj, and hates him with a passion. Unexpected circumstances happen…
Dheeraj comes to Delhi and is searching desperately for Megha. Ankush is shocked to see Dheeraj and does not want to reveal anything about Megha to him now. He's scared of loosing her to Dheeraj. Even when the kind and generous Ankush decides to keep his sweetheart's fiance's return a secret, you don't really hate him for that bit of deception. When Dheeraj explains his point of view, Soha says she's torn between the two men and finds herself at crossroads.
Complex situation: One side there is a person whom she loved and who equally loved her but due to circumstances could not make to court on the marriage date. Other side is a person who has helped her in her tough times. He had gone to extent of borrowing money to provide her a roof. Whom should she choose as her life partner? What do u think?
Abhay Deol is a complete natural. His boy-next-door looks make the character more believable, more convincing. Soha catches attention once again. She is heartbreakingly expressive and fragile. The storyline is simple, the situations seem straight out of life.
Resistance for change
Its strange that any change is not acceptable by people and they always try to resist but once things are in shape they get accustomed to it.
Every passing day gives me a new challenge to understand life better. Its a great learning. I m not sure, what decision i might end up taking but i know the results for both...
February 15, 2007
"Friends Forever"
Worked whole day and finally at 7.00 p.m got some flowers which this person had sent. He wanted it to be a surprise and unfortunately he had to reveal coz flowers were supposed 2 b delivered at 12 noon. A bunch of Yellow Roses. They were nice and nicer was the message which was embedded in it which said "Friends Forever".
I have kept them on my table and have put the message on my display board. People around came to see flowers but yellow color saved me. That was my valentine day. I was in office till 8.00 p.m and only thing that brought smile were these flowers.
February 12, 2007
People work for bosses and not for company
Last few months were the most satisfying months of my life. Had a hassle free life on both professional and personal front. Life seemed to be so peaceful.
Today when i reached office, i was told that my boss was looking for me. I knew what for. I had to give him report and i was on leave for last 2 days. So when i went to see him at his cabin, someone was already in his cabin so i came back. Few minutes later when i was at my desk going thru my mails, i saw him crossing my desk and then he asked me loud "how was the marriage?" A people's person, who remember each and everything thats happening with his team. Then he said "i need to speak to you so please come to my cabin"
When i went, i thought it wud be business or some new work, but this was off track. He said the other dept has a position vacant and wanted to check wid me if i wud b interested. A position for which people beg/request/die was given to me without even me asking for it. I was dumb for a sec. That was quite unexpected. I wasnt sure how to react..but then i agreed to meet the other manager to understand the req. Boss told me that he wud respect my decision and it wud be entirely my call.
I went to meet the other manager and had a gud 40 mins session.
I came back more confused as the position was better than i expected and a level higher than what currently i m at. But at the same time the con is i wud have to report to someone else. No one can beat my manager. He is just too gud as a person and as a leader.
Now i was able to relate this saying "people work for bosses and not for company". The only dilema with me is my boss. I hardly speak to him but i know how supportive he is when required. One side there is a new opportunity knocking my door and otherside is a person i wud like to work for. Opportunities dont come on our way so often, so i m planning to take it up only if my boss suggests me to.
Again i have a mixed emotion thing. Everyone is asking me to move onto this new role which has been offered to me and i m still confused...i just have few hrs to decide...morning i will have to take a call...yes or no will change my life....
February 10, 2007
Rejection Vs Pity
Standing between Rejection and Pity...Not able to figure out which one hurts more!
Which one is better to live with all life?
Marriages are made in Heaven...
Marriages are made in heaven then why do we celebrate it here?
One wedding, two people on stage, 100s at venue and chaos whole night. Mama maami and chahcha chahchi all want their photos to be done with bride-groom, on urgent basis because they want to relish food ASAP.
The best part of any wedding is dance/songs played. But this wedding had special attraction.
One day before:
One hall room was packed with some dozen relatives and all of them lying on the mattresses on the floor& chit chatting. Later the small groups divided themself in two big groups (of maternal and paternal cousins of the bride) and competing in antakshri. Comments, jokes and fun was all part of the game. Everyone danced on "Vaari Varsi Khatan Gayasi..." A typical punjabi folk thing which is fun filled and compels every relation to dance or enact.
The D Day:
Any typical punjabi wedding wud consist of different food stalls, one stage for bride groom, Guys/ Men in Sherwani and ladies in all latest trends with layers of make up on their face.
Snapshots: What will you find there
- No matter what the weather is like, you would not find a single lady with sweater/shawl even at freezing temp. Well you can call them "HOT" that ways.
- Distant cousins and relatives and the pet dialogue of forgotton aunty would be " Kitni badi ho gayi hai, pehchaana mujhe? jab tu itni si thi na tab main tujhe gaudh main khilaya karti thi". Next time tell them - Obv yaar chhoti thi tabhi khilate the..ab khila kar dikhao gaudh main tab maano ;)
- One aunt with some old grudge, taunting back coz she forgot to make a particular comment in the last marriage.
- Few uncles, just at the bar counters.
- A group observing dresses worn by others and finally critisizing...
- Bride smiling(read as: forced to smile) everytime, when the light is thrown on her face.
- Zoom the camera and one dark corner u will find a lady adjusting saree/hair style of another lady.
- Guys staring at girls. (By Default)
- One dance floor occupied by people doing bhangra steps on shakira's "Hips dont lie"
- A girl standing in the crowd and observing all this.
Attend one wedding and it seems to leave prints for lifetime. Overall this marriage was fun and better than any wedding i have attended so far.
February 04, 2007
Life is a roller coaster ride
Things move so fast in life...i used to play with my cousins and the same cousins are getting married in the coming 2 weeks...i m little excited...did little bit of shopping..2 traditional wear and two casual attire will do. Bought one black saree..voww i was dying to buy black...finally..now need to buy earings and other accessiories...i hate buying that but cant be without them in wedding :(
I will be taking off on thursday and friday...the thing which is exciting me most is the drive..man 6 hrs drive is gng to b fun. Ahhh i guess more than shopping the thought of drive gives me a pleasure...and more than marriage its my cousins hostel that i will be visiting is exciting me. I was waiting for this day. They wanted to show me their campus and wanted me to meet their friends ..so will be paying them a visit. m all set for weddings now...
January 23, 2007
Moview Review: Chokher Bali
- Released on: October, 2004
- Watched on: 23rd Jan 2007 (just 2.5 yrs late)
- Place: Office
- Chokher Bali loosely translates to “sand in the eyes”.
Story of a lady, Binodini (Aishwarya Rai) who becomes a widow within a year of her marriage. Binodini is an educated and liberated woman - who refuses to conform to her expected widow status - something completely taboo in that era. She tries to draw 2 men towards her in a different manner. Till the end, I was trying to understand the psychology of Ash's Character.
Movie was obv not a commercial one and would not interest people who are looking for typical bollywood flicks with action/comedy/tragedy. This would interest a niche segment. I somehow wasnt pleased by Ash's work. She lacks confidence in the role, which was very much required. She looked artificial and forced herself on character. She does not completely live up to Binodini’s bold & rebellious character. Guess she needs to refine her skills for such kinda roles.
However it is Raima Sen that completely steals the show. She brings life into Ashalata’s rather dull and underdeveloped character. Has done fairly well and I would rate her better than Ash in living upto expectation.
Again a movie that depected a problem existed in our society years back. Director, Rituporna Gosh, has done a good job.
Water Nominated for Oscar: Kudos to Deepa
As per the members of the right-wing Hindu group, the Shiv Sena,-" It insults Hindu sentiments and depicts Hindu culture in a poor light."
"Water" shows abandoned widows living in extreme poverty, some of whom are forced into prostitution by powerful Hindu priests who run homes for widows at holy Hindu sites. Hindu nationalists say that these conditions no longer exist but a visit to the ashram where widows live — whether in Varanasi or Vrindavan in north India that is known for its large widow population — can vouch for the fact that little has changed.
Widows must wear only white; break their bangles; stop wearing jewelry; shun meat, hot food and sweets; keep away from happy occasions such as weddings and births; and, in many cases, shave their heads.
According to orthodox tradition, widows of high caste Hindus are responsible for their husband's death by having brought him bad luck. They are not allowed to live with a family — neither their parents nor their own children — or to remarry. These rules are intended to demonstrate that a widow is only half-human after her husband's death and must therefore lead a life of penance until she can join her dearly departed into the afterlife.
Benarasi Hindu extremists did not allow the director to shoot for the movie in its said location, the Benaras ghaats, because of the said controversial content.They shot secretly in Srilanka.
I dont understand why these extremists have to create a problem everytime. The protest did not stop the director to shoot the film and i think she raised a valid point. The same was pointed out in the movie Babul which again had a social message of widow marriage. Just because that was displayed as a family movie everyone accepted it and just because this movie shows a scenario which existed in 1930's feels weird?
Whats wrong with us? Why do we find it hard to accept truth?
January 21, 2007
Zindagi Rocks!
January 12, 2007
TGiF
The best moment was when our friend Kapil said he got the items for raita and since there was no one at home to prepare he got it here. He is half married, i mean currently engaged but getting married soon. So at rooftop, team took the curd out in a bowl, stirred and then added the boondis, salt and pepper in it. The instant Raita was prepared. Ahh the Team Work!!!
Work continues to be on freeze and the best official paid free time is what we r having.
Latest You Tube's Controversy
If you out of curiosity feel like watching this video then search for “Time to get sexy” and Gautham id there is “Yogamime”.
January 11, 2007
Me the virtual mother
My rudeness was interpreted in a different manner. He assumed that i was married but separated and was handling kids. Before leaving, I told my colleague to support my lies as I don’t like guys calling me for no reasons. She understood and actually supported it. This guys call reduced and life became peaceful. Few days later he tried my ext for some work and i wasn’t in office so he called her up and asked abt my well being. She wanted to have fun so told him that my younger daughter turned 3 yrs old and hence i was on half a day off.
When I came back she told me what she had told. I was little shocked and then had to digest. So facts as of now are:
My younger daughter is 3 yrs old. Her name is Sanya
Elder one is 5 yrs old and she is Simran
Not bad. She chose nice names and I don’t have to worry about it anymore. She is way too ahead and can handle it now :)
Sometimes out of desperation and frustration we say stupid things but these things help in short term. Incase if he comes to know then i will tell him that i was joking and if he doesnt then i will let him live with the nice misconception.
I dont look like an aunty though...:(
Intutions..hunch
Today i realised whats intution and sometimes when our heart says its not going to work, there has to be a reason behind. May be inner self evaluates things and keeps inside and we just get the vibes. Today those intutions of past were confirmed as i browsed through my old posts.
Will try to listen to them now onwards..
January 08, 2007
First ever appraisal
Cutest part was when he said “ U are different with other people and very formal with me even now. I understand that ur previous company’s environment must have been different but I guess it will take sometime for you to even take me as a normal person and not just as boss” That was quite sweet of him.
He did ask me if I wanted to ask/share or complain about anything and I had nothing to tell. I never knew I was so happy with my work, environment, and managers that I had no concerns at all. He rated me nicely. With others he spent 40 mins on an average but with me it was a matter of 15 mins. Guess he knew me better this time. He has told me to learn new things and appreciated all my efforts made last few months.
I still remember that when I joined my first organization, I always wanted to come to this current co. but I guess god wanted me to experience something else. Even after I joined this organization my experiences were not great. It took me 6 months to understand and sort things and make my environment according to my needs. But today everything seems to be set. My dream co. has become my fav. company now.
i m happy and feel contended
January 01, 2007
Happy New Year: 2007
Time: 1.15 a.m
Place: home sweet home
Had a hectic week with relatives and cousins around. They left yesterday and I had no energy to celebrate it further. Morning went out with mom dad and was back home at 6 in the evening. Made chocolate cake and snacks. Yup I know I m a weirdo. Get crazy ideas on the wrong days.
Reason why I entered my kitchen: Day before yesterday a colleague of mine casually forwarded a mail and I replied back. After exchanging few mails he said…looking at you I can make out that you can not cook so don’t dare that ever and get me something made by your mom. Quite an insult. Felt like going upstairs and hitting him but then that was pun and I was supposed to take it easy. Later when I was thinking as what made him say so…I realized I actually haven’t entered my kitchen in last 6 months and incase if I stepped in that was coz I wanted to get my glass of juice/milk which mom prepares for me every morning. Gosh what an irresponsible daughter. So thought of making tea, snacks and cake. That’s a different story that cake is lying on my table and mom dad expecting me to finish it!!!!
Then sat with dad and narrated what all happened in office in last 2-3 months. I think this time dad stayed over night after a long time. He will be going back tomorrow morning. Both mom & dad slept at 10. I got so many sms and at 12.30 got couple of calls which were quite unexpected. I am lucky to have friends who out of blue call and make my day. Everybody was shocked when they found that I spent my evening at home. I think I didn’t even thought of going out this time. Thankfully tomorrow its off. I will get up late. Have to wish some of my friends both New Year and Eid.
Wishing you all a very happy and prosperous new year
P.S: I am quite impressed with the new blogger. Just took the tour to its new feature and there is an option where you can make your blog private. Just to be viewed by your family and friends. Great so here my other blogs go private and this remains open for others.