Don’t ask me how I found this...I was doing some R&D on google few days back and found this. Downloaded it for trial and found it interesting and useful.
Trillian supports AIM, ICQ, MSN, Yahoo Messenger, and IRC. I have uninstalled other messengers from my comp now. It has reduced the pain of managing too many messengers J I am not promoting it by any chance. It’s just that I liked it
Oh shit forgot to wish u….happy b’day to all of u!!! ;)
March 31, 2005
March 29, 2005
Dual Personality: people's perspective
If you are thinking that i am pointing at split personality then you are absolutely wrong. No i am talking abt the duality which is totally opposite of spilt case. In split case the two personalities inside a body are not aware of each other’s existence and in dual personality both the personalities are aware of each other’s existence. Strange rite?
Now the point is how come i am on this topic? well few ppl told me that even i have a dual personality!!! i denied them saying that u are wrong..but i do accept the fact that i have a dual personality...but i will not say its dual..there are some 5-6 personalities within me ;) well i believe that everyone has different personalities which come into picture when they are into different situations and dealing with different ppl. If i am dealing with a friend obviously i will behave in a friendly manner and on the contrary if i take my professional life then obviously i will be quite formal & reserved not interfering in others matter. so we define our roles and personalities on the situations and circumstances? dont we? Well i guess most of the people change it unaware of the fact that they do so. I admit it so i am a person with dual personalities.
But this thinking of me was quite wrong. Don’t wonder why? Two of my friends revealed me the secret of dual personalities clearly. As per them what we project as our outer self is completely different from our inner self and that’s dual personalities trait. One of them dared to tell me that I appear jolly, bold and humorous and always fun loving but inside is a girl who is deeply hurt, pessimist and frightened. That was something new. He observed me for quite sometime and told me that I have created a wall for myself that doesn’t let any emotion touch it...I am a serious character and quite practical. I bury all my feelings and I am close-minded if it comes to love. Right Sir?
Another friend of mine told me something similar to that...He told i look notorious, pranky and bindass kinds. But sometimes he sees a very different female who is very decent and who is a typical girl. Well i never talk or behave like a girl and when he told me it came to me as a shock. The first thing i asked him was " when did i behave like a girl". he had no answers...
There are couple of ppl who have pointed things similar to this...i dont know how to explain them. The worst happens when they get to know that i am a Gemini by Sunsign. That itself is enough for them to prove this..anyways watever..i just want to tell all of u who fell that i have a dual personality, pls guys i am not the only one who is like this. Each individual on this earth has a dual personality. Everyone deals differently with differnt ppl and not everyone shares all the things with any tom, dick and harry. Am I rite?
Now the point is how come i am on this topic? well few ppl told me that even i have a dual personality!!! i denied them saying that u are wrong..but i do accept the fact that i have a dual personality...but i will not say its dual..there are some 5-6 personalities within me ;) well i believe that everyone has different personalities which come into picture when they are into different situations and dealing with different ppl. If i am dealing with a friend obviously i will behave in a friendly manner and on the contrary if i take my professional life then obviously i will be quite formal & reserved not interfering in others matter. so we define our roles and personalities on the situations and circumstances? dont we? Well i guess most of the people change it unaware of the fact that they do so. I admit it so i am a person with dual personalities.
But this thinking of me was quite wrong. Don’t wonder why? Two of my friends revealed me the secret of dual personalities clearly. As per them what we project as our outer self is completely different from our inner self and that’s dual personalities trait. One of them dared to tell me that I appear jolly, bold and humorous and always fun loving but inside is a girl who is deeply hurt, pessimist and frightened. That was something new. He observed me for quite sometime and told me that I have created a wall for myself that doesn’t let any emotion touch it...I am a serious character and quite practical. I bury all my feelings and I am close-minded if it comes to love. Right Sir?
Another friend of mine told me something similar to that...He told i look notorious, pranky and bindass kinds. But sometimes he sees a very different female who is very decent and who is a typical girl. Well i never talk or behave like a girl and when he told me it came to me as a shock. The first thing i asked him was " when did i behave like a girl". he had no answers...
There are couple of ppl who have pointed things similar to this...i dont know how to explain them. The worst happens when they get to know that i am a Gemini by Sunsign. That itself is enough for them to prove this..anyways watever..i just want to tell all of u who fell that i have a dual personality, pls guys i am not the only one who is like this. Each individual on this earth has a dual personality. Everyone deals differently with differnt ppl and not everyone shares all the things with any tom, dick and harry. Am I rite?
All it cost is a smile
Day before yesterday I went to ATM to withdraw money. The traffic was too much and somehow I managed to cross the road and withdrew the money. I came out of the ATM and was waiting for traffic to move slow. I am an accident prone female so was waiting patiently. But after sometime I realized that it’s the peak office hours and I wont be able to cross until I manage hard. I moved a little further in the same direction and reached a point where I was supposed to take a turn. I saw vehicles coming at a high speed got scared and stepped back. I tried again but again got scared and stepped back.
Now I thought this move would be a third and final one and if I don’t then I will be missing my Cab. So I placed my first step on the road crossed a little …vehicles were going and I covered one fourth of the road. I cud not go back and cud not move further then I saw a bicycle coming in my direction…I knew if this person applies brake then he will meet with an accident and if he doesn’t then I will, either one will get injured, so crossed my finger and stood there itself. The person who was riding that bicycle was a poor old man. When our eyes met I gave him a smile knowing that one is going to get injured. He smiled back though his expressions told me how frightened he was with the thought of meeting with an accident. He just approached and I got little space in front of me so I moved a little. That was a good escape for us. I managed to cross the road. I turned back to see what happened to that bicycle fellow. He looked back and gave a smile…smile of gratitude.
I was wondering why we take everything so seriously in life. If we face every problem with a smile then even god will become considerate. It was just a smile that put the other person at ease. It was a smile that saved us from a mishappening.
A smile doesn’t cost anything!!! Does it?
Now I thought this move would be a third and final one and if I don’t then I will be missing my Cab. So I placed my first step on the road crossed a little …vehicles were going and I covered one fourth of the road. I cud not go back and cud not move further then I saw a bicycle coming in my direction…I knew if this person applies brake then he will meet with an accident and if he doesn’t then I will, either one will get injured, so crossed my finger and stood there itself. The person who was riding that bicycle was a poor old man. When our eyes met I gave him a smile knowing that one is going to get injured. He smiled back though his expressions told me how frightened he was with the thought of meeting with an accident. He just approached and I got little space in front of me so I moved a little. That was a good escape for us. I managed to cross the road. I turned back to see what happened to that bicycle fellow. He looked back and gave a smile…smile of gratitude.
I was wondering why we take everything so seriously in life. If we face every problem with a smile then even god will become considerate. It was just a smile that put the other person at ease. It was a smile that saved us from a mishappening.
A smile doesn’t cost anything!!! Does it?
What do I say for it?
I am not sure what I am upto but a little upset today. Saw few lines from someone special few days back and cud not reply to them…She is the person I have loved most and also I have dedicated one article for her in this blog of mine…
The discussion started with the responsibilities part. I know it’s not easy to digest what all I have said but thinking from my angle it’s not impossible also. She said “whenever ppl take responsibilities they r never praised for what they have done but ppl tend to pick out just the mistakes. I know criticize is much easier than taking the responsibility and the stuff behind it.”
I do agree with her but shall we stop performing our responsibilities after some criticism? I did reply to her but again I feel that she will take it as philosophy from a child. I replied to her saying that “ that’s the human tendency and we must accept it. What I feel is if we do something good to others we must forget that and shall not expect it back, if we expect then we are doing a business and our goodness gains no value…it is more or less give and take kinds. U know what if u do 10 good things and 1 bad thing ppl will tend to notice that 1 bad thing & that’s life and that’s human nature”
Its not all that easy not to expect but then what’s the harm in practicing it…if we are able to practice it then what ever we will get in life will be much more than we cud have imagined and it will give us a pleasure. Expecting big things/returns in life and not getting them in actual will lead us to nowhere but to a state where we will start thinking negative, which will refrain us from performing our responsibility. There is a saying in hindi which I firmly believe “ Neki kar aur dariya main daal”
Today somehow when I was replying to her, the topic of joint Family and Nuclear family chipped in though she never raised or commented on it but somehow my antenna did not miss it in the air…Born and bought up in a nuclear family I always wanted to see how it feels to be in a joint family…how it feels when u fight with ur cousins one moment and next moment help them in their studies or their problems, I do have a sibling and have experienced all this but I guess it’s a different feeling altogether with cousins…correct me if I am wrong…
As I grew I found that Joint family doesn’t associate with happiness only it comes with n number of problems…learning from others experience I realized that today very few ppl prefer joint families…I found some of my friends hating these concepts…on being asked they replied who is going to take the headache of all. I can understand the working cases but what abt housewives why do they feel that its headache??? Anyways, everybody has a right to think and live the way they want who m I to comment on them?
I wish to get into a joint family to see the taste of it, .to see a loving family with all the members together. I know it’s not all that easy & practical but what’s the harm in dreaming?
The discussion started with the responsibilities part. I know it’s not easy to digest what all I have said but thinking from my angle it’s not impossible also. She said “whenever ppl take responsibilities they r never praised for what they have done but ppl tend to pick out just the mistakes. I know criticize is much easier than taking the responsibility and the stuff behind it.”
I do agree with her but shall we stop performing our responsibilities after some criticism? I did reply to her but again I feel that she will take it as philosophy from a child. I replied to her saying that “ that’s the human tendency and we must accept it. What I feel is if we do something good to others we must forget that and shall not expect it back, if we expect then we are doing a business and our goodness gains no value…it is more or less give and take kinds. U know what if u do 10 good things and 1 bad thing ppl will tend to notice that 1 bad thing & that’s life and that’s human nature”
Its not all that easy not to expect but then what’s the harm in practicing it…if we are able to practice it then what ever we will get in life will be much more than we cud have imagined and it will give us a pleasure. Expecting big things/returns in life and not getting them in actual will lead us to nowhere but to a state where we will start thinking negative, which will refrain us from performing our responsibility. There is a saying in hindi which I firmly believe “ Neki kar aur dariya main daal”
Today somehow when I was replying to her, the topic of joint Family and Nuclear family chipped in though she never raised or commented on it but somehow my antenna did not miss it in the air…Born and bought up in a nuclear family I always wanted to see how it feels to be in a joint family…how it feels when u fight with ur cousins one moment and next moment help them in their studies or their problems, I do have a sibling and have experienced all this but I guess it’s a different feeling altogether with cousins…correct me if I am wrong…
As I grew I found that Joint family doesn’t associate with happiness only it comes with n number of problems…learning from others experience I realized that today very few ppl prefer joint families…I found some of my friends hating these concepts…on being asked they replied who is going to take the headache of all. I can understand the working cases but what abt housewives why do they feel that its headache??? Anyways, everybody has a right to think and live the way they want who m I to comment on them?
I wish to get into a joint family to see the taste of it, .to see a loving family with all the members together. I know it’s not all that easy & practical but what’s the harm in dreaming?
March 28, 2005
The best holi I ever played…
Friday Saturday Sunday..vow 3 days continous off…so what can u expect from me..as usual I was out of town…I went to kemmangundi. A place which is around 300 kms from Bangalore and is a beautiful hill station.
We started on 25th March, Friday for Kemmangundi. We planned to start at 5.00 a.m in the morning but I think some thing was really bad that day...My friend (Amit) who was suppose to drive cud not find his DL and then finally he got one after a search of 2 hrs. We started our journey but we cud not exceed the speed limit of 60 as the vehicle (Wagon R) was new and he had not given it for first service. But the drive was not all that bad…we took a sexy way and reached some hill…we climbed it and then finally reached another one…we enjoyed the twists and turns of the roads on the hill…now when we reached the plains…we were wondering where the hell is Kemmangundi??? But we did not loose our patience...and finally reached to another hill…started climbing roads again...again twists and turns…but these ones we cud not enjoy …too much of it…finally we reached down…again we were wondering how far is it…on the net we saw the distance as 260 kms …but we had already crossed 320 kms. Now we got little impatient…it was 5.00 and we were on the hills…we wanted to reach the place before the sunset to avoid any mishappening…
Seems like god was on leave and left us on the mercy of jungle and its inhabitant …some thing hit the tyre and one strange sound started coming…we tried to figure out the problem but cud not find it L. The milestone infront of us was showing that place was still 20 kms away and the last town we left was some 40 kms behind…we were in dilemma as wat do do...then we decided that we will go further 20 kms…we drove the vehicle at a speed of 10 km/h…even a bicycle wud have been faster…somehow we reached there…we stopped at a point where a tea stall was there. We all got down in the hope that we will find some person who will be able to sort out the problem. A group of ppl approached and one among that group knew how to sort it out. We all sat on a wooden bench and waited for the person to repair. Then he asked Amit to take a test ride to see whether everything is fine or not? They both sat inside and vehicle was out of our sight. We four were waiting for the vehicle near that stall…15 mins…20 mins..1 hr…but it did not come back…we got scared…we started cursing ourself, thinking that why the hell we let him go all alone...wat if something is wrong...all our luggage is in the Car…the person who repaired the car wud have seen so many purses and …
But getting scared was not the solution. We started walking in the direction where the car went…it was getting dark…but the guys were scared to take us along with them in the jungle…so they made us sit near the second shop…
After 10 mins when I was sitting with my friend in a lawn we heard a horn...that was our car...we rush towards it but this time the two who went to find him were missing…me & unnati both started looking at each others face…what’s this...gosh…we were expressionless…then Amit told ” I have booked a room on top so lets go and put our things there”…I asked “ where are the others?” he told that they are coming…good relief for us…we had no reservation in the guest house...it was an unplanned trip…we managed to get a store room…it wasn’t all that bad…it was a big carpeted hall room with TV in one corner…table and chairs in the opposite direction, they gave us 5 mattresses, pillows and bed sheets. It was a decent type...later staff told us that this room is supposed to be a conference room of this guest house but they have never witnessed a single so they are using it as a store room for keeping extra mattresses…pillows TVs...and whatever they find which they can not accommodate in other guest rooms. Anyways that was fine for us…but only problem was food…they were not providing any food in that guest house …we came down in a restaurant which was exactly 368 stairs (down) from there and had our dinner…we ate like monkeys…as if we had never seen food before…we skipped our lunch coz cud not fine any good restaurants on our way…(how can u expect any restaurants on the hills with jungles?)
After dinner climbed those 368 stairs again and reached our guest house which is called as RajBhavan but I call it Krishna cottage due to its location and the scary environment . My friend she gave me a tight slap when I uttered this name…L we slept of as we were really tired.
Next day morning we all got up at 11.00. We did not take bath as the water was ice cold…and we had plans for Hebbe falls...we knew we wont be able to resist that and will definitely jump in that so avoided bathing in that stinking bathroom. We approached the local authorities and they told us that its not wise to take ur vehicle on that road…its pathetic…so we believed them and hired a Jeep…a jeep which was just 3 years younger to me ;) I mean ancient kinds manufactured in 1985. We sat in that and realized wat a mistake…falls were some 12 kms from Krishna cottage…About the road…I guess pathetic will be a decent word for it…too much of dust, rocky mountains…and not to forget those big jhatkas which almost displaced all my bones and stuff inside for fraction of seconds.
We reached there in half an hour. The place is extremely beautiful. We went near to the fall...then played holi there...it was fun playing holi and pushing each other in water and then slipping on the rocks ;)
We came out after 3 hrs that too when we saw cheap crowd coming in our direction. After reaching Krishna cottage we waited for the sunset as the Krishna cottage is little above the Sunset point. After that we climbed one more point that is the topmost point. We sat there and started talking to each other. It was dark and we enjoyed talking and all of a sudden we saw light coming from one direction. We were wondering how come they have switched on one tubelight that too behind a mountain but the light started taking the shape of a round object...then we realized it was moon, which came in the sky with Mars.
First time in my life I saw Moon rise J. Next day we planned to see the nearby points…thankfully Krishna cottage was centrally located…we 3 went to see shanti falls and Z point. Don’t wonder as what happened to rest 2 of them, they were half dead (sleeping)...lazy bumps. We came back and started back for Bangalore. This time thankfully we took the right route and did not climb 3-4 mountains ;). Reached Bangalore at 7.00 but that was not enough for the Lazy ppl they wanted to swim…we then went to a resort at Mysore road. Had our dinner and reached home at 11.45 p.m. After reaching home I did not see in any other direction…just went to bed and let my body fall on that…
Beautiful place...
Fun filled Holi and
Wonderful Trip.
We started on 25th March, Friday for Kemmangundi. We planned to start at 5.00 a.m in the morning but I think some thing was really bad that day...My friend (Amit) who was suppose to drive cud not find his DL and then finally he got one after a search of 2 hrs. We started our journey but we cud not exceed the speed limit of 60 as the vehicle (Wagon R) was new and he had not given it for first service. But the drive was not all that bad…we took a sexy way and reached some hill…we climbed it and then finally reached another one…we enjoyed the twists and turns of the roads on the hill…now when we reached the plains…we were wondering where the hell is Kemmangundi??? But we did not loose our patience...and finally reached to another hill…started climbing roads again...again twists and turns…but these ones we cud not enjoy …too much of it…finally we reached down…again we were wondering how far is it…on the net we saw the distance as 260 kms …but we had already crossed 320 kms. Now we got little impatient…it was 5.00 and we were on the hills…we wanted to reach the place before the sunset to avoid any mishappening…
Seems like god was on leave and left us on the mercy of jungle and its inhabitant …some thing hit the tyre and one strange sound started coming…we tried to figure out the problem but cud not find it L. The milestone infront of us was showing that place was still 20 kms away and the last town we left was some 40 kms behind…we were in dilemma as wat do do...then we decided that we will go further 20 kms…we drove the vehicle at a speed of 10 km/h…even a bicycle wud have been faster…somehow we reached there…we stopped at a point where a tea stall was there. We all got down in the hope that we will find some person who will be able to sort out the problem. A group of ppl approached and one among that group knew how to sort it out. We all sat on a wooden bench and waited for the person to repair. Then he asked Amit to take a test ride to see whether everything is fine or not? They both sat inside and vehicle was out of our sight. We four were waiting for the vehicle near that stall…15 mins…20 mins..1 hr…but it did not come back…we got scared…we started cursing ourself, thinking that why the hell we let him go all alone...wat if something is wrong...all our luggage is in the Car…the person who repaired the car wud have seen so many purses and …
But getting scared was not the solution. We started walking in the direction where the car went…it was getting dark…but the guys were scared to take us along with them in the jungle…so they made us sit near the second shop…
After 10 mins when I was sitting with my friend in a lawn we heard a horn...that was our car...we rush towards it but this time the two who went to find him were missing…me & unnati both started looking at each others face…what’s this...gosh…we were expressionless…then Amit told ” I have booked a room on top so lets go and put our things there”…I asked “ where are the others?” he told that they are coming…good relief for us…we had no reservation in the guest house...it was an unplanned trip…we managed to get a store room…it wasn’t all that bad…it was a big carpeted hall room with TV in one corner…table and chairs in the opposite direction, they gave us 5 mattresses, pillows and bed sheets. It was a decent type...later staff told us that this room is supposed to be a conference room of this guest house but they have never witnessed a single so they are using it as a store room for keeping extra mattresses…pillows TVs...and whatever they find which they can not accommodate in other guest rooms. Anyways that was fine for us…but only problem was food…they were not providing any food in that guest house …we came down in a restaurant which was exactly 368 stairs (down) from there and had our dinner…we ate like monkeys…as if we had never seen food before…we skipped our lunch coz cud not fine any good restaurants on our way…(how can u expect any restaurants on the hills with jungles?)
After dinner climbed those 368 stairs again and reached our guest house which is called as RajBhavan but I call it Krishna cottage due to its location and the scary environment . My friend she gave me a tight slap when I uttered this name…L we slept of as we were really tired.
Next day morning we all got up at 11.00. We did not take bath as the water was ice cold…and we had plans for Hebbe falls...we knew we wont be able to resist that and will definitely jump in that so avoided bathing in that stinking bathroom. We approached the local authorities and they told us that its not wise to take ur vehicle on that road…its pathetic…so we believed them and hired a Jeep…a jeep which was just 3 years younger to me ;) I mean ancient kinds manufactured in 1985. We sat in that and realized wat a mistake…falls were some 12 kms from Krishna cottage…About the road…I guess pathetic will be a decent word for it…too much of dust, rocky mountains…and not to forget those big jhatkas which almost displaced all my bones and stuff inside for fraction of seconds.
We reached there in half an hour. The place is extremely beautiful. We went near to the fall...then played holi there...it was fun playing holi and pushing each other in water and then slipping on the rocks ;)
We came out after 3 hrs that too when we saw cheap crowd coming in our direction. After reaching Krishna cottage we waited for the sunset as the Krishna cottage is little above the Sunset point. After that we climbed one more point that is the topmost point. We sat there and started talking to each other. It was dark and we enjoyed talking and all of a sudden we saw light coming from one direction. We were wondering how come they have switched on one tubelight that too behind a mountain but the light started taking the shape of a round object...then we realized it was moon, which came in the sky with Mars.
First time in my life I saw Moon rise J. Next day we planned to see the nearby points…thankfully Krishna cottage was centrally located…we 3 went to see shanti falls and Z point. Don’t wonder as what happened to rest 2 of them, they were half dead (sleeping)...lazy bumps. We came back and started back for Bangalore. This time thankfully we took the right route and did not climb 3-4 mountains ;). Reached Bangalore at 7.00 but that was not enough for the Lazy ppl they wanted to swim…we then went to a resort at Mysore road. Had our dinner and reached home at 11.45 p.m. After reaching home I did not see in any other direction…just went to bed and let my body fall on that…
Beautiful place...
Fun filled Holi and
Wonderful Trip.
March 21, 2005
I, Robot
No no I am not talking abt the movie in which Will Smith acted…I am talking abt myself…Vow I am becoming a machine…yesterday I woke up at 6.30 a.m to catch a bus at 7.30 and reached home at 10.30 in the nite…well it just took 3 hrs for me to reach home…nahh…nothing serious was doing free Bangalore darshanam…Actually they have changed the office timings, its 10 to 7.30 p.m now
It’s really a pain coming in company’s cab…they showed us all corners of bangalore…gr8…well on top of it I was forced to listen to FM 91...I was under impression that Darius is a good RJ and the songs played on FM are good…but no…everything is disgusting on it including that babbar sher…what stupid shayri they play…meaningless…Songs are pathetic…they play all remixes…I don’t know who originated this remix thing…some are bearable but some are horrible…after listening to them I feel like scratching my head…and not to mention those irritating ads…yuck they are…
I don’t know whats wrong with me these days, for everything I am cribbing…its bad for me...but I don’t know how to remove this…
Dear God,
Help me!! Save this world from me :(
Ships
It’s really a pain coming in company’s cab…they showed us all corners of bangalore…gr8…well on top of it I was forced to listen to FM 91...I was under impression that Darius is a good RJ and the songs played on FM are good…but no…everything is disgusting on it including that babbar sher…what stupid shayri they play…meaningless…Songs are pathetic…they play all remixes…I don’t know who originated this remix thing…some are bearable but some are horrible…after listening to them I feel like scratching my head…and not to mention those irritating ads…yuck they are…
I don’t know whats wrong with me these days, for everything I am cribbing…its bad for me...but I don’t know how to remove this…
Dear God,
Help me!! Save this world from me :(
Ships
March 20, 2005
First Saturday...scary morning and beautiful evening
Thankfully got this Saturday off.
Went to Hosmat hospital for Medical check up (part of joining formalities)…they had given me a letter, which I was supposed to give it to a concerned person in the Hospital. First I had an X-ray…then blood tests…my god…i am so scared of needle…when I see a needle my heart starts sinking…I closed my eyes and the person inserted the needle in my hand…little pain…then similar kind of tests…finally ECG was done by a female…I did not knew what ECG meant…she put some patch with titch buttons on it on me…and then linked it with some wires...then she switched on a Monitor…some lines were coming…I did not understand a bit of it (though I have seen this in couple of movies)…cud not hide my curiosity and asked that nurse...what are u doing? What is this? She told me that ECG is done for checking the functioning of heart...and problems related to it…hmmm I took a deep breath. Heart …my heart is with me and I have not given it to anyone...its pretty safe inside my body…why do u want to check it…no no I did not say all this to her…I was just speaking to myself…
Then she started removing those wires from my body…some kinda tension grew inside me…she was silent...very silent…I got scared…I asked her “ Is everything all rite?” she said yes…but there was no expression on her face...no smile at all…I was not satisfied with her answer...coz her expressions and the answer was not matching…I repeated my question “ Are u sure…is everything fine?” This time she smiled and said “ yes”. I did not ask her again…but I got nervous…I really wanted to know my reports…I thought she is hiding coz I havent brought any one along with me…I had a big question mark in my eyes…was just thinking if something goes wrong then they will terminate my service…so I should know the problem before getting a big shock…anyways I if something is wrong I will come to know abt it soon.
Thankfully they did not perform the brain test…otherwise company wud have regretted their decision of hiring me ;)
Evening I went to Nandi Hills..stayed there…saw sunset and wanted to see sunrise from a hill…heard that its wonderful on a hill top…I was awake at 4.30 a.m in the morning to see the sunrise…but sun acted smart…till 5.15 it was dark...i was feeling so sleepy…but did not wanted to miss the opportunity so controlled myself…at around 5.30 saw the dawn…it was very cold on hill…the cold breeze was capable enough to take my life ;)…I saw different colors in the sky…I saw the clouds on the mountains, saw them moving u know what was my words after looking those clouds and mountains “Seems like heaven” . Saw the darkness going and the sunlight coming from one angle…it was a combination of colors in the sky…red, pink, purple…i cant name some shades…finally suraj devta appeared at around 6.00…no body was looking at that side…and I saw it first...I shouted “it has come” it was a small yellow ball…originating behind some mountains…(reminded me of the paintings of small children) we clicked some snaps…hope they will come nicely…finally at 7.00 we started for Bangalore. Reached here by 9.00. Then as usual I slept off…and got up at my standard time 2.00 p.m. that was my weekend.
Went to Hosmat hospital for Medical check up (part of joining formalities)…they had given me a letter, which I was supposed to give it to a concerned person in the Hospital. First I had an X-ray…then blood tests…my god…i am so scared of needle…when I see a needle my heart starts sinking…I closed my eyes and the person inserted the needle in my hand…little pain…then similar kind of tests…finally ECG was done by a female…I did not knew what ECG meant…she put some patch with titch buttons on it on me…and then linked it with some wires...then she switched on a Monitor…some lines were coming…I did not understand a bit of it (though I have seen this in couple of movies)…cud not hide my curiosity and asked that nurse...what are u doing? What is this? She told me that ECG is done for checking the functioning of heart...and problems related to it…hmmm I took a deep breath. Heart …my heart is with me and I have not given it to anyone...its pretty safe inside my body…why do u want to check it…no no I did not say all this to her…I was just speaking to myself…
Then she started removing those wires from my body…some kinda tension grew inside me…she was silent...very silent…I got scared…I asked her “ Is everything all rite?” she said yes…but there was no expression on her face...no smile at all…I was not satisfied with her answer...coz her expressions and the answer was not matching…I repeated my question “ Are u sure…is everything fine?” This time she smiled and said “ yes”. I did not ask her again…but I got nervous…I really wanted to know my reports…I thought she is hiding coz I havent brought any one along with me…I had a big question mark in my eyes…was just thinking if something goes wrong then they will terminate my service…so I should know the problem before getting a big shock…anyways I if something is wrong I will come to know abt it soon.
Thankfully they did not perform the brain test…otherwise company wud have regretted their decision of hiring me ;)
Evening I went to Nandi Hills..stayed there…saw sunset and wanted to see sunrise from a hill…heard that its wonderful on a hill top…I was awake at 4.30 a.m in the morning to see the sunrise…but sun acted smart…till 5.15 it was dark...i was feeling so sleepy…but did not wanted to miss the opportunity so controlled myself…at around 5.30 saw the dawn…it was very cold on hill…the cold breeze was capable enough to take my life ;)…I saw different colors in the sky…I saw the clouds on the mountains, saw them moving u know what was my words after looking those clouds and mountains “Seems like heaven” . Saw the darkness going and the sunlight coming from one angle…it was a combination of colors in the sky…red, pink, purple…i cant name some shades…finally suraj devta appeared at around 6.00…no body was looking at that side…and I saw it first...I shouted “it has come” it was a small yellow ball…originating behind some mountains…(reminded me of the paintings of small children) we clicked some snaps…hope they will come nicely…finally at 7.00 we started for Bangalore. Reached here by 9.00. Then as usual I slept off…and got up at my standard time 2.00 p.m. that was my weekend.
March 18, 2005
Second day wasnt good either
The best part of it was the morning time. When Annie got up she saw some chits pasted by me…he he…she smiled and woke me up…it was 6.30 in the morning…all my alarms were ringing…Annie said “ babe don’t u think u should go to office on second day instead of sleeping till nine…too much fun u had for 1 year” I got up...she was smiling…and again sat on her bed…I went and switched on the geyser…took a bath and by 7.00 I was ready for office…Aunty cooked the breakfast for me…had and I started towards my bus point. I reached there at 7.30. I called up driver and he told he was reaching in 10 mins...yes I called him up on his mobile from a one rupee coin box…reason...i have surrendered my company cell and new one is yet awaited…my personal sim card lapsed some 5 months back...now I have to go for a new one…
Well those 10 mins I called my mom from a STD booth…she answered the call…was surprised to hear my voice…only thing she was not able to digest was me being awake at 7.30. I started complaining like a little daughter...”whats this mom..u know I got up at 6.30..can u believe it…can u imagining me getting up at 6.30...” she started laughing…did not comment on that thankfully…
Finally the cab came…I am the second pick and last second drop...I am wasting 4 hours in this stupid commute …this cab showed me all the interior routes of the city…I never knew Bangalore was so big…Reached office..in the hope that today I will work hard...but all waste..when I reached I saw no comp on my desk...i got irritated…I went and complained my TL…whats this? Where is the comp? when is it supposed to come? Bad luck favored me and I completed my novel in the first half itself…now no work ...absolute nothing…was staring at ppl…peeped and saw what others were doing...but how long..one was watching cricket score on rediff every 5 mins…others were also hopeless kinds…my frustration was increasing every minute…I cud not check my mails on first day...but second day requested my colleague to allow me to use a system for 5 mins…Good God 5 mins were like 5 milliseconds…internet speed was good but mails were too many…I saw some 40 relevant mails from friends…checked them fast...did not reply to a single soul on this earth…then gave the system back…went for lunch…came back and everybody started working again…me the useless creature was wandering…then saw a new face in the team…asked my colleague who is that one…did not see him yesterday at introduction session…she told me that guy is in sales and is also going to delhi on transfer like u…he looked smart…but anyways not my cup of team…he gave a glance back and I knew what kind of look it was…
Then somebody told me that we have a internet café inside the campus which is free of cost and u can go and check ur mails there...good that was something good for me…I went to check but no chairs...was supposed to stand and use it… Finally replied to couple of friends…it was 6.15 p.m…day was finally over…
Well those 10 mins I called my mom from a STD booth…she answered the call…was surprised to hear my voice…only thing she was not able to digest was me being awake at 7.30. I started complaining like a little daughter...”whats this mom..u know I got up at 6.30..can u believe it…can u imagining me getting up at 6.30...” she started laughing…did not comment on that thankfully…
Finally the cab came…I am the second pick and last second drop...I am wasting 4 hours in this stupid commute …this cab showed me all the interior routes of the city…I never knew Bangalore was so big…Reached office..in the hope that today I will work hard...but all waste..when I reached I saw no comp on my desk...i got irritated…I went and complained my TL…whats this? Where is the comp? when is it supposed to come? Bad luck favored me and I completed my novel in the first half itself…now no work ...absolute nothing…was staring at ppl…peeped and saw what others were doing...but how long..one was watching cricket score on rediff every 5 mins…others were also hopeless kinds…my frustration was increasing every minute…I cud not check my mails on first day...but second day requested my colleague to allow me to use a system for 5 mins…Good God 5 mins were like 5 milliseconds…internet speed was good but mails were too many…I saw some 40 relevant mails from friends…checked them fast...did not reply to a single soul on this earth…then gave the system back…went for lunch…came back and everybody started working again…me the useless creature was wandering…then saw a new face in the team…asked my colleague who is that one…did not see him yesterday at introduction session…she told me that guy is in sales and is also going to delhi on transfer like u…he looked smart…but anyways not my cup of team…he gave a glance back and I knew what kind of look it was…
Then somebody told me that we have a internet café inside the campus which is free of cost and u can go and check ur mails there...good that was something good for me…I went to check but no chairs...was supposed to stand and use it… Finally replied to couple of friends…it was 6.15 p.m…day was finally over…
March 16, 2005
My first day at new Office
I got up at 7.00 a.m. I did not feel the freshness in me...took my shower...and then started for the company...its very very far from my house/PG. I reached to the near Busstop. I asked some fellow passengers abt the bus numbers etc...they all gave me some different responses...Anyway had no other options but to wait...finally saw a bus coming...got little relieved when saw it approaching..but that bugger stopped it too far...ppl started running towards it...i thought of doing…but the bus was too crowded and moreover too many ppl were running...so i thought will wait for some more mins and will board in next bus. Waited and waited but not even a single bus came after that...It was peak hours...got pissed as it was 9.15 a.m there. Then took a rick.
Reached the company at 10.15 a.m. I met a female and she gave me all the documents to fill...it took almost all 1 hour to finish that...after that she took me to RMG group. I sat there for some time and saw VP ...he was the one who took my interview (final round). They had to shift the office from ground floor to second…so i was not given system and things to work...i was just supposed to sit...i sat for quite some time and got bugged.... how can they expect me to kill time just like that...only good thing i did was i carried my Novel along with me...whole day sat and read novel in a corner, bugged my TL and every time I used to ask him for my system.
Well that was not enough for me I guess…I went and enquired from colleagues abt the cabs…the nearest place the cab drops me is some 700 mts away from my place…good in one way…atleast I will walk a little now…will be able to shed off some weight which I am gaining every day and every minute L…I guess there is something in wrong in air I breath and water I drink...he he
In the evening I came to my cab and told the driver the nearest point. Finally I sat in that. It was 6.30 p.m. By the time it dropped me to my stop it was 8.15 p.m. I was tired…I cud barely walk…700 mts looked like 7 kms to me…while coming I realized how far my office is...its not a joke to go there everyday…so many things were going in my mind…and finally this came …which is really funny…
“ Iif my schedule gonna be like this everyday then how will my husband react…when will I cook food? Will he adjust ? He will surely kick me out of house after a month…Who will tolerate this? But then whats my fault? The cab was late..so much of traffic is there in the city…office time is till 6.30 p.m .
Then I thought of my future…wat will happen to my kids…poor kids…pity on them..good that they don’t exist L
Oh gosh….cant believe it…girl like me thinking this way...i smiled at myself…laughed at myself…and told good gosh...i am becoming funny day by day…
I reached my hostel...entered the room…and washed my face first…the stupid pollution will take remaining things away ;)…then had my dinner and slept at 11.30 p.m after talking to my rommie & other friends. Told Annie (roommate) to wake me up at 6.30 as driver told me that he will be at the point at 7.30 a.m.
I tried to sleep but was really scared to get up at 6.30…I knew myself...not in any condition I can get up at 6.30…no matter how many alarms I put….so I got up again…made 10 chits...and pasted on all the walls doors and visible points. One chit I pasted on the switch board thinking that Annie will first switch on the light…then second I pasted on Bathrooms door…near the handle…coz that’s the second thing she will do...then third chit I pasted on geyser...knew she will switch on that...then 4 th one on the mirror inside the bathroom…god all the places I cud imagine…finally on my almirah...annie’s almirah…walls…I guess only place I left was commode ;)
Then finally came and slept…
Reached the company at 10.15 a.m. I met a female and she gave me all the documents to fill...it took almost all 1 hour to finish that...after that she took me to RMG group. I sat there for some time and saw VP ...he was the one who took my interview (final round). They had to shift the office from ground floor to second…so i was not given system and things to work...i was just supposed to sit...i sat for quite some time and got bugged.... how can they expect me to kill time just like that...only good thing i did was i carried my Novel along with me...whole day sat and read novel in a corner, bugged my TL and every time I used to ask him for my system.
Well that was not enough for me I guess…I went and enquired from colleagues abt the cabs…the nearest place the cab drops me is some 700 mts away from my place…good in one way…atleast I will walk a little now…will be able to shed off some weight which I am gaining every day and every minute L…I guess there is something in wrong in air I breath and water I drink...he he
In the evening I came to my cab and told the driver the nearest point. Finally I sat in that. It was 6.30 p.m. By the time it dropped me to my stop it was 8.15 p.m. I was tired…I cud barely walk…700 mts looked like 7 kms to me…while coming I realized how far my office is...its not a joke to go there everyday…so many things were going in my mind…and finally this came …which is really funny…
“ Iif my schedule gonna be like this everyday then how will my husband react…when will I cook food? Will he adjust ? He will surely kick me out of house after a month…Who will tolerate this? But then whats my fault? The cab was late..so much of traffic is there in the city…office time is till 6.30 p.m .
Then I thought of my future…wat will happen to my kids…poor kids…pity on them..good that they don’t exist L
Oh gosh….cant believe it…girl like me thinking this way...i smiled at myself…laughed at myself…and told good gosh...i am becoming funny day by day…
I reached my hostel...entered the room…and washed my face first…the stupid pollution will take remaining things away ;)…then had my dinner and slept at 11.30 p.m after talking to my rommie & other friends. Told Annie (roommate) to wake me up at 6.30 as driver told me that he will be at the point at 7.30 a.m.
I tried to sleep but was really scared to get up at 6.30…I knew myself...not in any condition I can get up at 6.30…no matter how many alarms I put….so I got up again…made 10 chits...and pasted on all the walls doors and visible points. One chit I pasted on the switch board thinking that Annie will first switch on the light…then second I pasted on Bathrooms door…near the handle…coz that’s the second thing she will do...then third chit I pasted on geyser...knew she will switch on that...then 4 th one on the mirror inside the bathroom…god all the places I cud imagine…finally on my almirah...annie’s almirah…walls…I guess only place I left was commode ;)
Then finally came and slept…
March 15, 2005
My farewell party
Last day of my company. I came late. I came office at 11.00. I went to dentist for regular checkup and then came to office. Was wearing a new dress...when i entered...saw no power...so started taking down numbers on a piece of paper from my mobile. Was supposed to surrender the mobile in the evening. Everybody in the office knew that it was my last day. I was little upset..little tensed..but not happy from any angle.
Had lunch with my colleagues and then started working..well to be very frank i cant say i worked that day...just did a little transition work...sent mails to all personal contacts again reminding them that i am surrendering my cell so kindly delete the number.
went upstairs to meet MD...finally gave him the resignation letter...he read and smiled..well it was sad for me..i did not know how to react...i remained silent...he told me all good things...he told me that he believes in me and also found me very focused towards my career...he advised me not to leave or get deviated from it...gave good wishes...we discussed many things...i also wanted to discuss many things with him...he is of my fathers age..or may be older than that..but the amout of knowledge he has got in our field is tremendous..and best of all is his way of dealing things and dealing with ppl. I have always respected him for that. I also discussed with him some of my weaknesses...i knew i was talking to the right person...I asked him as how to deal when i face prroblem related to ethics...i get angry..annoyed..and stubborn...i dont care even if its my boss...which is not good...sometimes turns out bad for the team..as the envoirnments gets spoiled...he listened to me patiently and then answered..stick to your ethics...as far as possible...in some situations u will be compromising as the whole system is corrupt..but as far as u can take...good for u..its a good thing to see in a girl who is the youngest in my company. I felt good...
We discussed n number of topics...all were good and also i was little relieved...i guess i sat with him for more than 45 mins...
Evening around 5 they called me upstairs again...they called everyone..it was a farewell party for me...snacks and sweets...i ordered for icecreams and cold drinks for everyone...then MD gave me gifts on behalf of everyone...Then we went to roof and clicked some pics from my camera...i wanted their snaps...so as to remember the good time spent with them all. My colleague Bharat & Smitha also gave me personal gifts. It was a mixed kinda feeling...
I opened the gift when came down..most of them wanted to see my reactions...they gave me a nice Watch, a dress material and a 24 caret gold platted Balaji's idol. All were good...i liked them a lot...i was in office till 8.00 p.m..cleaning my drawers...arranging all the documents..which will be required after i leave...last call i made was to my mom..tried dad's number first but there was no answer...then after calling mom i tried brother's number..he was not reachable....gave mobile and all the things back to bharat...he was the last person in office to whom i said bye...
Came to home...was damn tired...but then suddenly it flashed to me that i am supposed to take photocopies of all my documents tomorrow along with me to new company...rushed to the shop and finally came back and had dinner...had already surrendered the cell...so in the nite was lying on the bed..thinking abt the new day which was just few hours away...dont know why i was so apprehensive abt joining the new company....closed my eyes and dont know when i slept off...
Had lunch with my colleagues and then started working..well to be very frank i cant say i worked that day...just did a little transition work...sent mails to all personal contacts again reminding them that i am surrendering my cell so kindly delete the number.
went upstairs to meet MD...finally gave him the resignation letter...he read and smiled..well it was sad for me..i did not know how to react...i remained silent...he told me all good things...he told me that he believes in me and also found me very focused towards my career...he advised me not to leave or get deviated from it...gave good wishes...we discussed many things...i also wanted to discuss many things with him...he is of my fathers age..or may be older than that..but the amout of knowledge he has got in our field is tremendous..and best of all is his way of dealing things and dealing with ppl. I have always respected him for that. I also discussed with him some of my weaknesses...i knew i was talking to the right person...I asked him as how to deal when i face prroblem related to ethics...i get angry..annoyed..and stubborn...i dont care even if its my boss...which is not good...sometimes turns out bad for the team..as the envoirnments gets spoiled...he listened to me patiently and then answered..stick to your ethics...as far as possible...in some situations u will be compromising as the whole system is corrupt..but as far as u can take...good for u..its a good thing to see in a girl who is the youngest in my company. I felt good...
We discussed n number of topics...all were good and also i was little relieved...i guess i sat with him for more than 45 mins...
Evening around 5 they called me upstairs again...they called everyone..it was a farewell party for me...snacks and sweets...i ordered for icecreams and cold drinks for everyone...then MD gave me gifts on behalf of everyone...Then we went to roof and clicked some pics from my camera...i wanted their snaps...so as to remember the good time spent with them all. My colleague Bharat & Smitha also gave me personal gifts. It was a mixed kinda feeling...
I opened the gift when came down..most of them wanted to see my reactions...they gave me a nice Watch, a dress material and a 24 caret gold platted Balaji's idol. All were good...i liked them a lot...i was in office till 8.00 p.m..cleaning my drawers...arranging all the documents..which will be required after i leave...last call i made was to my mom..tried dad's number first but there was no answer...then after calling mom i tried brother's number..he was not reachable....gave mobile and all the things back to bharat...he was the last person in office to whom i said bye...
Came to home...was damn tired...but then suddenly it flashed to me that i am supposed to take photocopies of all my documents tomorrow along with me to new company...rushed to the shop and finally came back and had dinner...had already surrendered the cell...so in the nite was lying on the bed..thinking abt the new day which was just few hours away...dont know why i was so apprehensive abt joining the new company....closed my eyes and dont know when i slept off...
March 14, 2005
Strange kinda feeling...
Well there is a strange feeling inside me. I am moving to a new company day after tomorrow…but I am not at all excited. The kind of job I always wanted is just a day away from me…still no enthu in me…why m I like this…why m I having sleepless nites…is there something which I didn’t like in the company or profile? Is this just a stupid fear...or is it a kind of intuition? Well whatever it is…bad for me…
Today I dropped a mail to all my friends giving them my personal ids and requesting them to delete the official id and also the contact numbers. I have handed over the work…I explained my colleague abt all my work and also showed him how I have stored things in my comp. I don’t want any mess after I leave...so arranged all my folders systematically with data. Only thing left now is to collect the certificates from the company. I haven’t given the resignation letter to MD…wanted to give 3 days back but some or the other things stopped me. Today I was abt to go when I saw him leaving. Well I have informed him abt that…and will be submitting it tomorrow.
The worst part is I haven’t taken a day off between the leaving and joining dates. I wanted to but then I thought what will I do with the leaves. Where will I go? How will I kill my time? First thought of sleeping whole day but then now I realized that sleepless nites are so horrible…sleepless day will be ….
So no break between the two jobs. I am having 6 weeks training in Bangalore then they will transfer me to Delhi. I hope that they will transfer me soon…my fingers are crossed now.
Today I dropped a mail to all my friends giving them my personal ids and requesting them to delete the official id and also the contact numbers. I have handed over the work…I explained my colleague abt all my work and also showed him how I have stored things in my comp. I don’t want any mess after I leave...so arranged all my folders systematically with data. Only thing left now is to collect the certificates from the company. I haven’t given the resignation letter to MD…wanted to give 3 days back but some or the other things stopped me. Today I was abt to go when I saw him leaving. Well I have informed him abt that…and will be submitting it tomorrow.
The worst part is I haven’t taken a day off between the leaving and joining dates. I wanted to but then I thought what will I do with the leaves. Where will I go? How will I kill my time? First thought of sleeping whole day but then now I realized that sleepless nites are so horrible…sleepless day will be ….
So no break between the two jobs. I am having 6 weeks training in Bangalore then they will transfer me to Delhi. I hope that they will transfer me soon…my fingers are crossed now.
March 08, 2005
Happy Women's Day
She is there in the care of a Mother
She is there in the affection of a Sister
She is there in the envy of a Lover
She is there in the understanding of a Wife.
She is a woman
Hang in there!
I know u have it in you...
To succeed in whatever u do!
Happy women's day to you!!!
Bikaji Cama Place, New Delhi
I always used to wonder as what's the meaning of this particular word. I have heard a lot abt Bikaji Cama place in New Delhi but never knew its significance. Its shocking that we dont know most of our freedom fighters :(
Well this place is named after a great Lady called
She also proposed a flag. (The flag shown in this article was proposed by her)
The tricolor-flag Madam Cama unfurled had green, saffron, and red stripes. Red represented strength, saffron victory, and green stood for boldness and enthusiasm. there were eight lotuses representing the eight provinces and flowers represented princely states. "Vande Mataram" in Devanagari adorned central saffron stripe which meant "salutation to Mother India." The sun and the moon indicated Hindu and Muslim faiths.
Want to read more about her? Click Here. :)
Hats off to her.
* Lessons of life *
Got this forward. Nice one...
Every situation is a lesson to be learned. From the most mundane chores to the most complex projects, life is always ready to teach you something.
Life is ready to teach when you are willing to learn. And the more you learn from what life offers, the better life becomes.
The lessons are usually not all that obvious. Yet they are there if you will think to take a look. The lessons are there in every moment, in every dilemma, in every frustration and every joy. They are there in every sadness, every victory, every discomfort and every pleasure.
Each lesson you learn paves the way for a new and even more valuable one. Each lesson you ignore keeps coming back, again and again.
One way or another, life will teach you its lessons. When you're a willing student, Those Lessons are Pure Gold.
Every situation is a lesson to be learned. From the most mundane chores to the most complex projects, life is always ready to teach you something.
Life is ready to teach when you are willing to learn. And the more you learn from what life offers, the better life becomes.
The lessons are usually not all that obvious. Yet they are there if you will think to take a look. The lessons are there in every moment, in every dilemma, in every frustration and every joy. They are there in every sadness, every victory, every discomfort and every pleasure.
Each lesson you learn paves the way for a new and even more valuable one. Each lesson you ignore keeps coming back, again and again.
One way or another, life will teach you its lessons. When you're a willing student, Those Lessons are Pure Gold.
March 04, 2005
Some people are so irritating especially guys…
Today I got a call when I was in Office. It was a STD call. I answered it and after that my mood was pathetic.
I picked the call and from the other side a person asked “ May I know ur name”.
What a ridiculous thing to ask. The person has dialed my number and still doesn’t know my name.
I asked him “whats your name and whom do u want to speak to?”.
That bugger is telling me “ well I asked ur name…whats your name”.
(I got irritated with this much only)
I replied saying that “ I think u have dialed the number now if u wish to tell ur name then its ok otherwise keep the phone” Then he told “ Is this Classic Search…” that’s the name of my company. “yes” I said…then I thought may be some candidate is calling for some official purpose and is not able to recall my name.
So I asked him “ this is regading?”
The other person answered “ well I am calling from Vizag…do u remember me”.
I said “ No, who is this”
He said “ guess?”
I guessed suraj’s name… he is my classmate and is currently in Vizag.
The other person asked “ who is Suraj..i don’t know any Suraj”
I was getting irritated and told him “ he is my Brother”
Then he asked “ u cant recall my name...how can u forget me..i am rajeev..i was ur senior”
I tried to recall but nothing flashed…so I told him “ sorry I cant recall ur name…can u just tell me more abt urself”.
He told ” well u forgot I gave u lift on my bike…i dropped u at some place.."
that was enough 4 me to take..so I told “ excuse me..i guess u are mistaken..i have never taken a lift from any of my senior…u are talking to a wrong person.”
He started laughing…He was abt to say something and before he cud say I interrupted him and told him “ See I cant recall u…I am sorry I don’t talk to strangers ...thanks 4 calling”and I kept the phone
I knew he will call again coz it was very ill mannered of me to keep the phone on somebody’s face without letting him complete his sentence. I was thinking and bell rang again…it was displaying the same number. I picked up…and it was him again.
He spoke and said “ see I did not mean to offend u...just wanted u to recall my name…I am Rajeev Samanth Roy…I was your senior. U remember ur other seniors bonojita, Saptparna…I used to be with them…do u remember ur batchmate Manas, I am from his place..i am an oriya..”
I regained my composure and asked “ OK how can I help u”
“ well just thought of calling u” he said.
I was silent for a moment…then he said “ U went for convocation, did u collect ur degree” I told “ yes I collected my degree on convocation”. He started laughing…loud…I cud hear some other guys voice at the back…
he said “ well don’t feel bad..i was just laughing for some other reason” I don’t know what was the catch...but I cud not control and told him “ well I don’t feel bad on comments made by ppl …I damn care abt them…is that clear?
He said “ u mean u don’t care abt ppl” It was so irritating …I blasted him saying that “ what are u upto..what non sense are u talking about…if u are trying to play some game, then its bad 4 u. Don’t try to call me again...i am least bothered…to hell with u”.
Thankfully he did not try again…I was just thinking what crapy ppl are in this world…initially I thought may be the person has got some work and as alumni of the same college we should help each other..but he was getting too much on my nerves…guys are so cheap and disguisting…
someppl are totally useless kinds...
I picked the call and from the other side a person asked “ May I know ur name”.
What a ridiculous thing to ask. The person has dialed my number and still doesn’t know my name.
I asked him “whats your name and whom do u want to speak to?”.
That bugger is telling me “ well I asked ur name…whats your name”.
(I got irritated with this much only)
I replied saying that “ I think u have dialed the number now if u wish to tell ur name then its ok otherwise keep the phone” Then he told “ Is this Classic Search…” that’s the name of my company. “yes” I said…then I thought may be some candidate is calling for some official purpose and is not able to recall my name.
So I asked him “ this is regading?”
The other person answered “ well I am calling from Vizag…do u remember me”.
I said “ No, who is this”
He said “ guess?”
I guessed suraj’s name… he is my classmate and is currently in Vizag.
The other person asked “ who is Suraj..i don’t know any Suraj”
I was getting irritated and told him “ he is my Brother”
Then he asked “ u cant recall my name...how can u forget me..i am rajeev..i was ur senior”
I tried to recall but nothing flashed…so I told him “ sorry I cant recall ur name…can u just tell me more abt urself”.
He told ” well u forgot I gave u lift on my bike…i dropped u at some place.."
that was enough 4 me to take..so I told “ excuse me..i guess u are mistaken..i have never taken a lift from any of my senior…u are talking to a wrong person.”
He started laughing…He was abt to say something and before he cud say I interrupted him and told him “ See I cant recall u…I am sorry I don’t talk to strangers ...thanks 4 calling”and I kept the phone
I knew he will call again coz it was very ill mannered of me to keep the phone on somebody’s face without letting him complete his sentence. I was thinking and bell rang again…it was displaying the same number. I picked up…and it was him again.
He spoke and said “ see I did not mean to offend u...just wanted u to recall my name…I am Rajeev Samanth Roy…I was your senior. U remember ur other seniors bonojita, Saptparna…I used to be with them…do u remember ur batchmate Manas, I am from his place..i am an oriya..”
I regained my composure and asked “ OK how can I help u”
“ well just thought of calling u” he said.
I was silent for a moment…then he said “ U went for convocation, did u collect ur degree” I told “ yes I collected my degree on convocation”. He started laughing…loud…I cud hear some other guys voice at the back…
he said “ well don’t feel bad..i was just laughing for some other reason” I don’t know what was the catch...but I cud not control and told him “ well I don’t feel bad on comments made by ppl …I damn care abt them…is that clear?
He said “ u mean u don’t care abt ppl” It was so irritating …I blasted him saying that “ what are u upto..what non sense are u talking about…if u are trying to play some game, then its bad 4 u. Don’t try to call me again...i am least bothered…to hell with u”.
Thankfully he did not try again…I was just thinking what crapy ppl are in this world…initially I thought may be the person has got some work and as alumni of the same college we should help each other..but he was getting too much on my nerves…guys are so cheap and disguisting…
someppl are totally useless kinds...
March 03, 2005
Do i really like her?
Well i dont know how to judge her. I am thinking from 2 different angles. When ever her name comes i feel something happens inside me. Some sort of a feeling for her. I dont know how to name it. I dont know whether i actually support her, but one thing is for sure, i agree with what she writes. Though she belongs to a very different community and country but somethings are common.
Taslima's name is not unknown to us. She is a feminist, well thats how ppl percieve her. Not me. Well i read few of her books. Lajja was a book on the Hindu Muslim riots and " My girl hood" a book on her experiences. I dont think there is anything wrong abt writing something which is actually happening or has happened in the society. When people can do it then why cant they read about it. Truth is always hard to accept.
Well the sexual exploitaion of girls is something which atleast i dont deny. No matter how much ppl try to defend saying that it happens only in news and books...but i say it happens and happens everyday.
If i start naming the places where girls are harrassed, most of the guys will be shocked. Most of them will bend their head coz of shame. Wanna know how a girl faces shits everyday...
On the Roads: Guys staring at her. Following her. Passing dirty comments.
In the Bus: cheapsters try to touch her...push her and if she turns back to scold they easily escape by telling that its crowded. She doesnt open her mouth coz she doesnt want to create a scene in public. ( i wonder if these cheapsters have mother and sisters in their home...how do they treat them? Do they touch their sis like they do with other females in the buses?)
In the Office: Colleagues passing cheap comments and jokes.
Home: well what we assume to be the safest place rite...hmmm safest... monsters are in some homes also. Little girls are harrased by their uncles, strange but true.
And the last but not the least: People who go to the religious leaders and join some associations lead by some great ppl (i dont want to name them). These leaders hypnotise and make them do what they actually want. Person goes to temple and religious leader for seeking peace and guidance...but inturn gets exploited. So u see how safe we are in our society.
Thats one angle but as usual there is another side of the coin. When i think abt the personal life of this lady then i get irritated. Even she has done blunders, so many extra marital affairs..so many husbands...god knows what all. Well what i feel is one should fight against the society if they are clean...but i know society will never let a person stay clean. It makes sure that the person gets tainted with the same color and starts flowing in the stream.
well whatever...facts are facts...and i dont feel anything bad abt it now...i am still proud to say that i am a Female and i am better than most of the guys :)
Taslima's name is not unknown to us. She is a feminist, well thats how ppl percieve her. Not me. Well i read few of her books. Lajja was a book on the Hindu Muslim riots and " My girl hood" a book on her experiences. I dont think there is anything wrong abt writing something which is actually happening or has happened in the society. When people can do it then why cant they read about it. Truth is always hard to accept.
Well the sexual exploitaion of girls is something which atleast i dont deny. No matter how much ppl try to defend saying that it happens only in news and books...but i say it happens and happens everyday.
If i start naming the places where girls are harrassed, most of the guys will be shocked. Most of them will bend their head coz of shame. Wanna know how a girl faces shits everyday...
On the Roads: Guys staring at her. Following her. Passing dirty comments.
In the Bus: cheapsters try to touch her...push her and if she turns back to scold they easily escape by telling that its crowded. She doesnt open her mouth coz she doesnt want to create a scene in public. ( i wonder if these cheapsters have mother and sisters in their home...how do they treat them? Do they touch their sis like they do with other females in the buses?)
In the Office: Colleagues passing cheap comments and jokes.
Home: well what we assume to be the safest place rite...hmmm safest... monsters are in some homes also. Little girls are harrased by their uncles, strange but true.
And the last but not the least: People who go to the religious leaders and join some associations lead by some great ppl (i dont want to name them). These leaders hypnotise and make them do what they actually want. Person goes to temple and religious leader for seeking peace and guidance...but inturn gets exploited. So u see how safe we are in our society.
Thats one angle but as usual there is another side of the coin. When i think abt the personal life of this lady then i get irritated. Even she has done blunders, so many extra marital affairs..so many husbands...god knows what all. Well what i feel is one should fight against the society if they are clean...but i know society will never let a person stay clean. It makes sure that the person gets tainted with the same color and starts flowing in the stream.
well whatever...facts are facts...and i dont feel anything bad abt it now...i am still proud to say that i am a Female and i am better than most of the guys :)
March 01, 2005
I am serving the notice period in current company...
Thats something different and new in my life. I am planning to leave my current company and going to join a new organisation soon. Everything is good in my current company... job profile, work culture, compensation but i m moving coz i want to relocate myself to Delhi due to some personal reasons.
Few days back got an offer from a software company for the HR executive position. I liked the profile. The best part is they are offering me Delhi position. I discussed with most of my friends and they all are suggesting me to take the offer. I am not sure how good and fruitful this offer will be in future...lets see. They have given me the joining date of 10th March. But till now i am in some discussions as i have got some doubts. I will try to extend the joining date by another 7 days.
I discussed it with my immediate boss Bharat...He also told me to take the offer. He suggested me to discuss this with MD. I went and discussed with MD and he also suggested me to take up the offer. Then he told me to break the news in the team. I did accordingly. Everything went smoothly. I was a little scared with all this. I thought the reactions will not be positive if i will say that i want to leave by this month. But to my disbelief everyone agreed and i got a positive response. I guess i did one right thing...i broke the news some 2 months back ...abt my plans for relocation. So everybody was mentally prepared. Nobody got a shock thankfully.
I am serving my notice period from today. Its a very strange feeling. My first company...my colleagues ...my comp..my chair...everything related to me will be left behind...i wont be able to see them after few days...some kind of pain arises when i think of leaving all this behind...
just recalled these lines from life goes on:
Oooh, life goes on, and it?s only gonna make me strong
Its a fact, once you get on board say goodbye cuz you can?t go back
Oooh, it?s a fight, and I really wanna get it rightWhere I?m at,
is my life before me, got this feeling that I can?t go back
Life goes on, life goes on, life goes on...
Few days back got an offer from a software company for the HR executive position. I liked the profile. The best part is they are offering me Delhi position. I discussed with most of my friends and they all are suggesting me to take the offer. I am not sure how good and fruitful this offer will be in future...lets see. They have given me the joining date of 10th March. But till now i am in some discussions as i have got some doubts. I will try to extend the joining date by another 7 days.
I discussed it with my immediate boss Bharat...He also told me to take the offer. He suggested me to discuss this with MD. I went and discussed with MD and he also suggested me to take up the offer. Then he told me to break the news in the team. I did accordingly. Everything went smoothly. I was a little scared with all this. I thought the reactions will not be positive if i will say that i want to leave by this month. But to my disbelief everyone agreed and i got a positive response. I guess i did one right thing...i broke the news some 2 months back ...abt my plans for relocation. So everybody was mentally prepared. Nobody got a shock thankfully.
I am serving my notice period from today. Its a very strange feeling. My first company...my colleagues ...my comp..my chair...everything related to me will be left behind...i wont be able to see them after few days...some kind of pain arises when i think of leaving all this behind...
just recalled these lines from life goes on:
Oooh, life goes on, and it?s only gonna make me strong
Its a fact, once you get on board say goodbye cuz you can?t go back
Oooh, it?s a fight, and I really wanna get it rightWhere I?m at,
is my life before me, got this feeling that I can?t go back
Life goes on, life goes on, life goes on...
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