September 10, 2006
September 06, 2006
Life’s unexpected detours
People come and go and they leave a print in your life. I guess i am taking this to a senti mode again but i m so low that i really cant help it. I tried hard to keep myself normal but sometimes u really cant help situations. Last post i decided to be in my bubbly mode but i failed against destiny's war.
Yesterday nite when i was winding up my work at home and was abt to switch off my system i got an sms from my classmate which read "Pranay met with an accident and he is serious." For a moment i thought some prank but when i scrolled further there was no message hidden...i was confused with it...i called my friend back and asked him and got to know that Pranay met with an accident and has got some brain injuries and is in ICU struggling for his life. Admitted in a hospital in Noida itself.
I kept the phone and started thinking abt pranay and Radhika..Radhika was also our classmate and they were in love for past 9 yrs and last month they got engaged and their marriage is fixed in Dec. I met them last month at their place. It wassome discussion which radhika wanted to have. I reached and rang the bell. Radhika opened the door. Then couple of other friends came and we finished the discussion. After others left i stood up to leave ..and radhika insisted me to stay. Then i enquired abt pranay. He was sleeping inside the room in the afternoon as he didnt want to be a part of that discussion. I silently went to that room and woke him up...ordered him to chat with me...Radhika made cold coffee for us and we had good reunion there. fPranay's sense of humor is always the best.
Things flashed and i could not stop myself. It was midnight and i could not leave home also. I decided to see him next next morning. i had a disturbed sleep with the thought of him being serious. Morning i got up without moms yelling. Mom was surprised to see me up myself. She asked the reason and i told her abt pranay's accident. First thing which was in my mind was pranay's condition. I quickly dressed myself for office and then reached hospital. met Radhika. She was no better. She was quite low and her family too was kind of shattered. Upon enquiring came to know that he has got some brain injuries and his brain has not responded in 26 hrs. Doctors have told very clearly that the chances of survival are less than 5%. These things were told to their family members by doc itself. I wonder how can doctors be so rude. After an hr i left for office. With a heavy heart i worked and my friends from all over the countries made calls to enquire abt his health as i was updating them on yahoo group. Last year we had lost one friend chiru in a similar kind of bike accident and brain injuries...2 days back we lost one of our senior.
Everyone was so much concerned and worried abt pranay and radhika. Evening after office i rushed back to hospital. Things are still not fine. His brain has still not responded. There is swelling in his brain and his family members have consulted all major hospitals with his reports and everyone has said the same thing. "keep him under observation for a week and lets see" and yes they did add...."prayers work in such situations."
Till 8.00 p.m today there was no sign of improvements. We all are visiting them turn by turn..Ashish gomber was there till 6.30. then i joined him and he left. At around 8 i checked with other friends and they told they are on their ways and then i left them.
I am so much tensed with his situation and praying to god to give pranay enough strength to come back to normal. I just can think of any other circumstance happening in their lives.
Pranay's mom is the strongest mom i have ever seen. She didnot shed a single tear while we all had wet eyes. She has lost her husband 3 yrs back when pranay was studying with us. She still managed to smile and was consoling others. She has promised us to throw a grand party once pranay is normal.
Dear Lord..please accept my prayer and bring pranay back to his normal state. I want to attend their wedding in Dec and want them to be happy forever.
God bless him...
P.S- To all my friends and ppl who come here, pls be careful while riding bikes and dont forget to wear helmets. if not for yourself then atleast for ppl you care.
Yesterday nite when i was winding up my work at home and was abt to switch off my system i got an sms from my classmate which read "Pranay met with an accident and he is serious." For a moment i thought some prank but when i scrolled further there was no message hidden...i was confused with it...i called my friend back and asked him and got to know that Pranay met with an accident and has got some brain injuries and is in ICU struggling for his life. Admitted in a hospital in Noida itself.
I kept the phone and started thinking abt pranay and Radhika..Radhika was also our classmate and they were in love for past 9 yrs and last month they got engaged and their marriage is fixed in Dec. I met them last month at their place. It wassome discussion which radhika wanted to have. I reached and rang the bell. Radhika opened the door. Then couple of other friends came and we finished the discussion. After others left i stood up to leave ..and radhika insisted me to stay. Then i enquired abt pranay. He was sleeping inside the room in the afternoon as he didnt want to be a part of that discussion. I silently went to that room and woke him up...ordered him to chat with me...Radhika made cold coffee for us and we had good reunion there. fPranay's sense of humor is always the best.
Things flashed and i could not stop myself. It was midnight and i could not leave home also. I decided to see him next next morning. i had a disturbed sleep with the thought of him being serious. Morning i got up without moms yelling. Mom was surprised to see me up myself. She asked the reason and i told her abt pranay's accident. First thing which was in my mind was pranay's condition. I quickly dressed myself for office and then reached hospital. met Radhika. She was no better. She was quite low and her family too was kind of shattered. Upon enquiring came to know that he has got some brain injuries and his brain has not responded in 26 hrs. Doctors have told very clearly that the chances of survival are less than 5%. These things were told to their family members by doc itself. I wonder how can doctors be so rude. After an hr i left for office. With a heavy heart i worked and my friends from all over the countries made calls to enquire abt his health as i was updating them on yahoo group. Last year we had lost one friend chiru in a similar kind of bike accident and brain injuries...2 days back we lost one of our senior.
Everyone was so much concerned and worried abt pranay and radhika. Evening after office i rushed back to hospital. Things are still not fine. His brain has still not responded. There is swelling in his brain and his family members have consulted all major hospitals with his reports and everyone has said the same thing. "keep him under observation for a week and lets see" and yes they did add...."prayers work in such situations."
Till 8.00 p.m today there was no sign of improvements. We all are visiting them turn by turn..Ashish gomber was there till 6.30. then i joined him and he left. At around 8 i checked with other friends and they told they are on their ways and then i left them.
I am so much tensed with his situation and praying to god to give pranay enough strength to come back to normal. I just can think of any other circumstance happening in their lives.
Pranay's mom is the strongest mom i have ever seen. She didnot shed a single tear while we all had wet eyes. She has lost her husband 3 yrs back when pranay was studying with us. She still managed to smile and was consoling others. She has promised us to throw a grand party once pranay is normal.
Dear Lord..please accept my prayer and bring pranay back to his normal state. I want to attend their wedding in Dec and want them to be happy forever.
God bless him...
P.S- To all my friends and ppl who come here, pls be careful while riding bikes and dont forget to wear helmets. if not for yourself then atleast for ppl you care.
September 05, 2006
Enough of Senti stuff ...i need a change
There were so many senti posts and me planning to improve myself now. Enough of Karan-sharukkhan’s melodrama style. Yesterday I met my Ex-Boss and a gud friend Bharat. It was like a meeting after ages. He was the first boss of my career and a good friend and a good motivator always. Has helped me a lot in my learning. I am always thankful to him for all he has done for me. Yesterday we both sat for sometime and discussed a lot about work and life. I am very happy that he has finally found his beloved and currently she is in Taiwan for some official visit. I got a chance to speak to her also when she called him up. She is no doubt a wonderful person.
Then we went back to his place and I met his mom dad and sister. It was nice meeting them all. I really enjoyed those 2-3 hrs of my day.
Another ex-colleague from same company, Smitha…I call her smikky is also engaged and getting married in early Jan coming year. I am so so happy that finally she also found her beloved. I really miss my first company, its people, its work culture and just everything about it. I am lucky…that I got a chance to work with wonderful people and got lovely friends in my life who are always there for me, with me.
Whenever I close my eyes and think of my first employer, I get a very devotional kind of feeling inside me. I see it as a temple.
Well there were many reasons that I am missing Classic Search so much because I met my ex boss…because smitha called and because I have already complete 2 yrs of blogging and this interest which became a habbit started when I was working there.
Hope to be a blogger forever…
Then we went back to his place and I met his mom dad and sister. It was nice meeting them all. I really enjoyed those 2-3 hrs of my day.
Another ex-colleague from same company, Smitha…I call her smikky is also engaged and getting married in early Jan coming year. I am so so happy that finally she also found her beloved. I really miss my first company, its people, its work culture and just everything about it. I am lucky…that I got a chance to work with wonderful people and got lovely friends in my life who are always there for me, with me.
Whenever I close my eyes and think of my first employer, I get a very devotional kind of feeling inside me. I see it as a temple.
Well there were many reasons that I am missing Classic Search so much because I met my ex boss…because smitha called and because I have already complete 2 yrs of blogging and this interest which became a habbit started when I was working there.
Hope to be a blogger forever…
September 01, 2006
We will meet again... Will we?
I never wanted this moment to come in my life. Every passing day makes me sick with the thought of loneliness that I will be facing in coming months. Distances matter in any relationship. Most of my good friends have left the country for further studies/ career.
And some are yet to leave. Things change so frequently that sometime you don’t get to understand the situation. U don’t get a chance to react on them.
Monday, Sachin (one of my bestfriend) was in town. He had informed me about his plans before arriving. We planned to meet on Tuesday. I left early from office to meet him at CP. He had some work in karolbagh so we drove down ..and he picked his stuff which he had given for stitching. We came back to Narula’s in CP and sat there for snacks. I met him almost after an year. We discussed about each others life..work and other friends. He treated me coz his visa got stamped. Yeah he is also flying to US. I was happy for him but at the same time sad for myself that another person leaving me and this country.
Then we went to the parking and stood there for sometime discussing on some topic. Silence was a bonding. I looked at him and tried to smile. Past few days of my life had been really tough and I see another tough moment of life. As he walks away from me..i feel the loss inside me…I feel the pain of standing alone and watching a person go again. I started my vehicle and came back home.
I don’t know how many goodbyes are stored for me. I had no words to stop him as he is going for good. And I always want him to achieve the most in life. He is not a net savy and not regular in mails either. All we were in touch were through phone calls. And practically speaking the frequency from US will go down.
I try to convince myself by saying “we will meet again and this friendship will go on”
Next Morning, I woke up and tried to forget the pain and started my day as an ordinary day. I reached office and started working. My mobile rings:
Me: hello
X: hey, whats up
Me: nothing much, u tell me whats up..hows life and how how come u have called me in the day time?
X: just like that
Me: ok cool..so whatelse happening? Whats new?
X: M going to Belgium on 9th Sept….long term onsite….
(Do I need to say anything else?)
And some are yet to leave. Things change so frequently that sometime you don’t get to understand the situation. U don’t get a chance to react on them.
Monday, Sachin (one of my bestfriend) was in town. He had informed me about his plans before arriving. We planned to meet on Tuesday. I left early from office to meet him at CP. He had some work in karolbagh so we drove down ..and he picked his stuff which he had given for stitching. We came back to Narula’s in CP and sat there for snacks. I met him almost after an year. We discussed about each others life..work and other friends. He treated me coz his visa got stamped. Yeah he is also flying to US. I was happy for him but at the same time sad for myself that another person leaving me and this country.
Then we went to the parking and stood there for sometime discussing on some topic. Silence was a bonding. I looked at him and tried to smile. Past few days of my life had been really tough and I see another tough moment of life. As he walks away from me..i feel the loss inside me…I feel the pain of standing alone and watching a person go again. I started my vehicle and came back home.
I don’t know how many goodbyes are stored for me. I had no words to stop him as he is going for good. And I always want him to achieve the most in life. He is not a net savy and not regular in mails either. All we were in touch were through phone calls. And practically speaking the frequency from US will go down.
I try to convince myself by saying “we will meet again and this friendship will go on”
Next Morning, I woke up and tried to forget the pain and started my day as an ordinary day. I reached office and started working. My mobile rings:
Me: hello
X: hey, whats up
Me: nothing much, u tell me whats up..hows life and how how come u have called me in the day time?
X: just like that
Me: ok cool..so whatelse happening? Whats new?
X: M going to Belgium on 9th Sept….long term onsite….
(Do I need to say anything else?)
August 01, 2006
Alive...no better than dead..
I met with an accident today morning on my way to office. It was all my mistake..my carelessness…the car is damaged….thankfully I was slow otherwise I wud have seen the damages on my body as well..there was no body at mistake…nobody was hurt..no damages to anyone..just me and me..and my poor car…
I lost my concentration..messed my driving with the mess in my brain…I had done that before as well..there is no better place to commit. My friend actually pointed my mistake telling me that “u were lost while driving..and that’s dangerous”. That certainly was.
Morning I got up and unlike my routine I sat in drawing room and started discussing my life and things I need to do which are too crucial with mom. I guess that was the wrong time. I went to my wardrobe..picked my new top to tell myself that everything is fine..and I need not worry about anything…and then I started my vehicle…just about a km..i was still in my sector..when I put it in 3rd gear…but suddenly something happened and I started thinking on so many things…I knew my thoughts were taking all my concentration so I put the vehicle in 2nd gear and slowed down…was thinking on so many things and then I realized it was 1st Aug..salary wud have been credited..and this time I will get a new music system for my car…and then I saw the barrier at the gate…I don’t know why for the first time it was down…as soon as i reached, I saw the another vehicle coming from the opposite side..though I was slow but I somehow felt that we were going to collide and I lost my control and moved my steering to right ..and that particular moment ended my dreams and thoughts…it was severe accident of my car…it is completely damaged from the front..water and petrol started leaking…I saw people gathering..i had no energy to come out of it..
I was so sense less for secs...then I came out to see what happened…and cud see the damage…I lost my confidence…I lost it because I had too many things in mind…I somehow managed to drive back home to park it…then I called my boss telling that I wud be late for work…I started walking down when my colleague came all the way to pick me..i didn’t want her to because I cud not stop my tears…but by the time she came I walked approximately 1.5 kms and was very much in control.
When I came back..my office people were looking at me and my condition..i cud barely speak…watery eyes and red nose were but obvious after such an incident…they then started telling me their various encounters…and accident stories and told me that I was safe and much luckier than others..that made me feel better..but now sitting in office I just don’t feel like working..every other min the scene of me loosing control over the vehicle comes and I just see myself as a looser...I hope I will be better soon…enough of my experiences…
I lost my concentration..messed my driving with the mess in my brain…I had done that before as well..there is no better place to commit. My friend actually pointed my mistake telling me that “u were lost while driving..and that’s dangerous”. That certainly was.
Morning I got up and unlike my routine I sat in drawing room and started discussing my life and things I need to do which are too crucial with mom. I guess that was the wrong time. I went to my wardrobe..picked my new top to tell myself that everything is fine..and I need not worry about anything…and then I started my vehicle…just about a km..i was still in my sector..when I put it in 3rd gear…but suddenly something happened and I started thinking on so many things…I knew my thoughts were taking all my concentration so I put the vehicle in 2nd gear and slowed down…was thinking on so many things and then I realized it was 1st Aug..salary wud have been credited..and this time I will get a new music system for my car…and then I saw the barrier at the gate…I don’t know why for the first time it was down…as soon as i reached, I saw the another vehicle coming from the opposite side..though I was slow but I somehow felt that we were going to collide and I lost my control and moved my steering to right ..and that particular moment ended my dreams and thoughts…it was severe accident of my car…it is completely damaged from the front..water and petrol started leaking…I saw people gathering..i had no energy to come out of it..
I was so sense less for secs...then I came out to see what happened…and cud see the damage…I lost my confidence…I lost it because I had too many things in mind…I somehow managed to drive back home to park it…then I called my boss telling that I wud be late for work…I started walking down when my colleague came all the way to pick me..i didn’t want her to because I cud not stop my tears…but by the time she came I walked approximately 1.5 kms and was very much in control.
When I came back..my office people were looking at me and my condition..i cud barely speak…watery eyes and red nose were but obvious after such an incident…they then started telling me their various encounters…and accident stories and told me that I was safe and much luckier than others..that made me feel better..but now sitting in office I just don’t feel like working..every other min the scene of me loosing control over the vehicle comes and I just see myself as a looser...I hope I will be better soon…enough of my experiences…
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