Color People - Welcome but not really!

When i used to hear about the racism, it all used to sound so weird. How can people think so low in in 21st century? It must not be true! Must be one of the media way of blowing things out of proportion to gain the TRPs.

I moved to the America's whitest city. Undoubtedly, a most wonderful experience in life - People so courteous, polished, law abiding, good at small talks and so non-interfering. Just looked a perfect world to me.

Perfect is so superficial! What lies beneath is an unimaginable horror. A subtle color discrimination exists even after creation of 100000 laws. You can counter everything that is written and said, but what do you do to things that are implicit. If you are not in STEM, you are 100% likely to experience it here in every form.

Its not about old punks but the new generation still dragging the shit and passing on to next generations as if it were a treasure!

My 4 year old started his pre-school. One evening he comes back and tells about his new learning from school - Its Peach! Not the fruit but the color peach. It was difficult for me to comprehend as to why teacher would move away from basic colors (Blue/Yellow/Green/Red) to a complex one as Peach. On further probing, he mentioned that his skin color is Peach, either kids are brown, black or white but he is peach. I was dumbstruck! I thought it was more appropriate for me to not encourage a discussion on skin color and make him learn the unwanted stuff.

The next time, we were in a park when I saw an older kid walking ahead of us. I told my son, to go say hello to him and play with him. My son looked at the kid and tells me - "Ohh do you mean that brown kid?" It was an Afrikan American kid. I was stunned the way color was making its way. It was definitely above and beyond the inquisitiveness of mind!I knew the very moment that it was time to make him understand things. I corrected my child and hopefully he will not repeat but out there are more kids who will grow the color schematics.

Wish there were more means to corrections of thought processes in the world! Perhaps some day..

Its all about Pain

The funny thing about Pain is - "Pain is not painful if you have spent some considerable time in it!"
Its Overrated in the beginning and underrated towards the end!

Another 30+ learning...

Have things changed?

When i published the previous post, i went to view how my blog looked like...i had changed the color, layout, fonts, pics & heading so many times in past. 

I started reading couple of old posts of mine and realised i had written some of them 10 years back...its really been long....i was wondering if its blogger that changed or is it me?

Why do i sound so different in those post? i can feel from the writings that i was young and carefree...i dont sound same any more...i still revisit my "hall of shame", i still do silly things, i still drop things clumsily and i still laugh at myself, but its still not the same!

i dont mind being stupid again, it was fun and i will trade off anything to be back in the same time...

and the year went by...

A girl who had it in her fate to move every 2-3 years from any location had finally thought that the stability arrived in her life as she managed to stay in one city for almost 7 years in a  row. The exception to the rule was it was not in the same house, trend of moving to new houses continued at the same pace.  As she fought with her destiny to not move from the city atleast, destiny decided to apply full force by throwing a stronger dislocation.

Yep i wouldnt call it a relocation. Relocation is always for a reason and may have a positive side to it (may not be the happy one though), on the contrary dislocation is when you arent sure what happened to you and why you moved.

I am not saying i wasnt aware of where i was going or i was forced to move, my fight and reasoning is to myself this time. I keep questioning myself - if what i did is what i expected to do in my life?

Exactly an year back, i left my country to move to states...i am still waiting to put an acceptable reason to it and move on in life by giving myself an excuse - "Atleast this good happened out of this!"

 It is definitely a bitter sweet experience to relocate at this stage...Its not about the age, but the stage!