There were so many senti posts and me planning to improve myself now. Enough of Karan-sharukkhan’s melodrama style. Yesterday I met my Ex-Boss and a gud friend Bharat. It was like a meeting after ages. He was the first boss of my career and a good friend and a good motivator always. Has helped me a lot in my learning. I am always thankful to him for all he has done for me. Yesterday we both sat for sometime and discussed a lot about work and life. I am very happy that he has finally found his beloved and currently she is in Taiwan for some official visit. I got a chance to speak to her also when she called him up. She is no doubt a wonderful person.
Then we went back to his place and I met his mom dad and sister. It was nice meeting them all. I really enjoyed those 2-3 hrs of my day.
Another ex-colleague from same company, Smitha…I call her smikky is also engaged and getting married in early Jan coming year. I am so so happy that finally she also found her beloved. I really miss my first company, its people, its work culture and just everything about it. I am lucky…that I got a chance to work with wonderful people and got lovely friends in my life who are always there for me, with me.
Whenever I close my eyes and think of my first employer, I get a very devotional kind of feeling inside me. I see it as a temple.
Well there were many reasons that I am missing Classic Search so much because I met my ex boss…because smitha called and because I have already complete 2 yrs of blogging and this interest which became a habbit started when I was working there.
Hope to be a blogger forever…
September 05, 2006
September 01, 2006
We will meet again... Will we?
I never wanted this moment to come in my life. Every passing day makes me sick with the thought of loneliness that I will be facing in coming months. Distances matter in any relationship. Most of my good friends have left the country for further studies/ career.
And some are yet to leave. Things change so frequently that sometime you don’t get to understand the situation. U don’t get a chance to react on them.
Monday, Sachin (one of my bestfriend) was in town. He had informed me about his plans before arriving. We planned to meet on Tuesday. I left early from office to meet him at CP. He had some work in karolbagh so we drove down ..and he picked his stuff which he had given for stitching. We came back to Narula’s in CP and sat there for snacks. I met him almost after an year. We discussed about each others life..work and other friends. He treated me coz his visa got stamped. Yeah he is also flying to US. I was happy for him but at the same time sad for myself that another person leaving me and this country.
Then we went to the parking and stood there for sometime discussing on some topic. Silence was a bonding. I looked at him and tried to smile. Past few days of my life had been really tough and I see another tough moment of life. As he walks away from me..i feel the loss inside me…I feel the pain of standing alone and watching a person go again. I started my vehicle and came back home.
I don’t know how many goodbyes are stored for me. I had no words to stop him as he is going for good. And I always want him to achieve the most in life. He is not a net savy and not regular in mails either. All we were in touch were through phone calls. And practically speaking the frequency from US will go down.
I try to convince myself by saying “we will meet again and this friendship will go on”
Next Morning, I woke up and tried to forget the pain and started my day as an ordinary day. I reached office and started working. My mobile rings:
Me: hello
X: hey, whats up
Me: nothing much, u tell me whats up..hows life and how how come u have called me in the day time?
X: just like that
Me: ok cool..so whatelse happening? Whats new?
X: M going to Belgium on 9th Sept….long term onsite….
(Do I need to say anything else?)
And some are yet to leave. Things change so frequently that sometime you don’t get to understand the situation. U don’t get a chance to react on them.
Monday, Sachin (one of my bestfriend) was in town. He had informed me about his plans before arriving. We planned to meet on Tuesday. I left early from office to meet him at CP. He had some work in karolbagh so we drove down ..and he picked his stuff which he had given for stitching. We came back to Narula’s in CP and sat there for snacks. I met him almost after an year. We discussed about each others life..work and other friends. He treated me coz his visa got stamped. Yeah he is also flying to US. I was happy for him but at the same time sad for myself that another person leaving me and this country.
Then we went to the parking and stood there for sometime discussing on some topic. Silence was a bonding. I looked at him and tried to smile. Past few days of my life had been really tough and I see another tough moment of life. As he walks away from me..i feel the loss inside me…I feel the pain of standing alone and watching a person go again. I started my vehicle and came back home.
I don’t know how many goodbyes are stored for me. I had no words to stop him as he is going for good. And I always want him to achieve the most in life. He is not a net savy and not regular in mails either. All we were in touch were through phone calls. And practically speaking the frequency from US will go down.
I try to convince myself by saying “we will meet again and this friendship will go on”
Next Morning, I woke up and tried to forget the pain and started my day as an ordinary day. I reached office and started working. My mobile rings:
Me: hello
X: hey, whats up
Me: nothing much, u tell me whats up..hows life and how how come u have called me in the day time?
X: just like that
Me: ok cool..so whatelse happening? Whats new?
X: M going to Belgium on 9th Sept….long term onsite….
(Do I need to say anything else?)
August 01, 2006
Alive...no better than dead..
I met with an accident today morning on my way to office. It was all my mistake..my carelessness…the car is damaged….thankfully I was slow otherwise I wud have seen the damages on my body as well..there was no body at mistake…nobody was hurt..no damages to anyone..just me and me..and my poor car…
I lost my concentration..messed my driving with the mess in my brain…I had done that before as well..there is no better place to commit. My friend actually pointed my mistake telling me that “u were lost while driving..and that’s dangerous”. That certainly was.
Morning I got up and unlike my routine I sat in drawing room and started discussing my life and things I need to do which are too crucial with mom. I guess that was the wrong time. I went to my wardrobe..picked my new top to tell myself that everything is fine..and I need not worry about anything…and then I started my vehicle…just about a km..i was still in my sector..when I put it in 3rd gear…but suddenly something happened and I started thinking on so many things…I knew my thoughts were taking all my concentration so I put the vehicle in 2nd gear and slowed down…was thinking on so many things and then I realized it was 1st Aug..salary wud have been credited..and this time I will get a new music system for my car…and then I saw the barrier at the gate…I don’t know why for the first time it was down…as soon as i reached, I saw the another vehicle coming from the opposite side..though I was slow but I somehow felt that we were going to collide and I lost my control and moved my steering to right ..and that particular moment ended my dreams and thoughts…it was severe accident of my car…it is completely damaged from the front..water and petrol started leaking…I saw people gathering..i had no energy to come out of it..
I was so sense less for secs...then I came out to see what happened…and cud see the damage…I lost my confidence…I lost it because I had too many things in mind…I somehow managed to drive back home to park it…then I called my boss telling that I wud be late for work…I started walking down when my colleague came all the way to pick me..i didn’t want her to because I cud not stop my tears…but by the time she came I walked approximately 1.5 kms and was very much in control.
When I came back..my office people were looking at me and my condition..i cud barely speak…watery eyes and red nose were but obvious after such an incident…they then started telling me their various encounters…and accident stories and told me that I was safe and much luckier than others..that made me feel better..but now sitting in office I just don’t feel like working..every other min the scene of me loosing control over the vehicle comes and I just see myself as a looser...I hope I will be better soon…enough of my experiences…
I lost my concentration..messed my driving with the mess in my brain…I had done that before as well..there is no better place to commit. My friend actually pointed my mistake telling me that “u were lost while driving..and that’s dangerous”. That certainly was.
Morning I got up and unlike my routine I sat in drawing room and started discussing my life and things I need to do which are too crucial with mom. I guess that was the wrong time. I went to my wardrobe..picked my new top to tell myself that everything is fine..and I need not worry about anything…and then I started my vehicle…just about a km..i was still in my sector..when I put it in 3rd gear…but suddenly something happened and I started thinking on so many things…I knew my thoughts were taking all my concentration so I put the vehicle in 2nd gear and slowed down…was thinking on so many things and then I realized it was 1st Aug..salary wud have been credited..and this time I will get a new music system for my car…and then I saw the barrier at the gate…I don’t know why for the first time it was down…as soon as i reached, I saw the another vehicle coming from the opposite side..though I was slow but I somehow felt that we were going to collide and I lost my control and moved my steering to right ..and that particular moment ended my dreams and thoughts…it was severe accident of my car…it is completely damaged from the front..water and petrol started leaking…I saw people gathering..i had no energy to come out of it..
I was so sense less for secs...then I came out to see what happened…and cud see the damage…I lost my confidence…I lost it because I had too many things in mind…I somehow managed to drive back home to park it…then I called my boss telling that I wud be late for work…I started walking down when my colleague came all the way to pick me..i didn’t want her to because I cud not stop my tears…but by the time she came I walked approximately 1.5 kms and was very much in control.
When I came back..my office people were looking at me and my condition..i cud barely speak…watery eyes and red nose were but obvious after such an incident…they then started telling me their various encounters…and accident stories and told me that I was safe and much luckier than others..that made me feel better..but now sitting in office I just don’t feel like working..every other min the scene of me loosing control over the vehicle comes and I just see myself as a looser...I hope I will be better soon…enough of my experiences…
July 31, 2006
I need a break
I am too tired of being myself..i really need a break..i want to go to some unexplored places..i want to enjoy peace...
Man can someone please take me to leh ..ladahk...i found small places which i never heard before..now i need to find people who are daring to explore such places...
Man can someone please take me to leh ..ladahk...i found small places which i never heard before..now i need to find people who are daring to explore such places...
Driving Experience #2:
Well this post was drafted quite some time back but somehow forgot to publish..
Reems stayed at my place last weekend and next morning I planned to drop in her place. We both looked at weather and felt happy. It was one of the most sexiest weather for a long drive. Her place is some 35 kms from my home. Its in Greater Noida and the route one has to take is awesome. The way is called as Express Way. Some 8 lanes and some 20 kms long. U can just go for a long drive there and I must confess I felt really gud on those road. Everytime I was telling reems that – god is so damn unfair…today weather is gud…mood is gud…roads are gud and unfortunately u r not gud..i mean I I felt like dating a gal..what can b more embarrassing than that?
Anyways she didn’t mind my stupid statements. She is always a sweetheart. I increased the speed of my car and we touched 100. I was happy..even at hundred I felt safe. Then I thought of gearing up further and meter showed 110. Reems looked at the meter and said…” u know what 120 km/h is the normal speed here on this road” I took that as a challenge and pressed the accelerator…and my speedometer showed 120…pressed little further and I was driving at 140…at 140 also I felt very normal and she said she is not getting the feeling of 140 speed. Then I lowered the window and we cud hear the air…the sounds were like what u hear when an aeroplane goes above your head and it was no doubt scary…she also got nervous and asked me to slow down…and then I somehow cud feel the car going out of my control…I slowed it down realizing my mistake. I am sure if I wud have continued at 140…I wudnt have got a chance to blog abt it..
:)
Reems stayed at my place last weekend and next morning I planned to drop in her place. We both looked at weather and felt happy. It was one of the most sexiest weather for a long drive. Her place is some 35 kms from my home. Its in Greater Noida and the route one has to take is awesome. The way is called as Express Way. Some 8 lanes and some 20 kms long. U can just go for a long drive there and I must confess I felt really gud on those road. Everytime I was telling reems that – god is so damn unfair…today weather is gud…mood is gud…roads are gud and unfortunately u r not gud..i mean I I felt like dating a gal..what can b more embarrassing than that?
Anyways she didn’t mind my stupid statements. She is always a sweetheart. I increased the speed of my car and we touched 100. I was happy..even at hundred I felt safe. Then I thought of gearing up further and meter showed 110. Reems looked at the meter and said…” u know what 120 km/h is the normal speed here on this road” I took that as a challenge and pressed the accelerator…and my speedometer showed 120…pressed little further and I was driving at 140…at 140 also I felt very normal and she said she is not getting the feeling of 140 speed. Then I lowered the window and we cud hear the air…the sounds were like what u hear when an aeroplane goes above your head and it was no doubt scary…she also got nervous and asked me to slow down…and then I somehow cud feel the car going out of my control…I slowed it down realizing my mistake. I am sure if I wud have continued at 140…I wudnt have got a chance to blog abt it..
:)
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